OUCH.
I stopped loving him months ago. I stopped listening to him weeks ago. But I still put up with him. I still care for him and I still expect him to return the favor.
But its a waste isnt it?
A waste of time and effort.
And frankly I give up.
I like to think I know you better than other people.. that I know things they will never know. I have an insight into your mind. Just like your family would or the people closest to you. I thought I was one of those people.
And you were supposed to be that of me. But from now on I release you. I no longer care what you know or what you do with what you know. I will let you live your life and keep my distance from you. I will live my life and I will let you mingle with me as you please but I refuse to let you inside anymore if you baracade me out.
The only thing that hurts... is not letting you go or pushing you away or even being pushed away. Its the fact that this wont even matter to you will it? Im not pretending to know.. Im honestly asking and I expect an answer. Does this even matter to you? Do you even care? and if you dont answer this question... if you dont even read this because you dont care enough to follow the link on my facebook Ill know my answer.
If it is what I fear... If I get no responce from you... I will realize you finally have died. You are finally gone from me and you are no longer and will never be the boy I knew and loved... and I will shed my tears in the confines of my bedroom over my loss..
The day your body physically dies I will cry publically for the bearings of what used to hold the person I cared about...
But its a waste isnt it?
A waste of time and effort.
And frankly I give up.
I like to think I know you better than other people.. that I know things they will never know. I have an insight into your mind. Just like your family would or the people closest to you. I thought I was one of those people.
And you were supposed to be that of me. But from now on I release you. I no longer care what you know or what you do with what you know. I will let you live your life and keep my distance from you. I will live my life and I will let you mingle with me as you please but I refuse to let you inside anymore if you baracade me out.
The only thing that hurts... is not letting you go or pushing you away or even being pushed away. Its the fact that this wont even matter to you will it? Im not pretending to know.. Im honestly asking and I expect an answer. Does this even matter to you? Do you even care? and if you dont answer this question... if you dont even read this because you dont care enough to follow the link on my facebook Ill know my answer.
If it is what I fear... If I get no responce from you... I will realize you finally have died. You are finally gone from me and you are no longer and will never be the boy I knew and loved... and I will shed my tears in the confines of my bedroom over my loss..
The day your body physically dies I will cry publically for the bearings of what used to hold the person I cared about...