Trouble is...
So, my immature pick me up backfired. When I mailbombed Mat, i entered his e-mail as the reply address, and the send to address, but i spelled the send to address wrong, so it replied to the reply to address... So Mat received 104 Failed to deliver messages carrying my completely exposed e-mail addresses. Oh well, it was obiviously me anyway.
He called Brandon on it, but Brandon didn't know about it. Then he called Brandon on why he has been avoided the past few weeks. Brandon told him why, and somehow Mat couldn't get a grip on the fact that a 2 year relationship would come before a 3 month friendship, and acted like a baby, and blocked Brandon from AIM, and facebook, and some of Brandon's friends as well. Brandon isn't happy about it. I feel like a prick for forcing him to do that, but it wasn't my fault! He's the one who lied to me, had he not, then this wouldn't have had to happen.
I was thinking of being a jackass and sending Mat 104 sarcastic apology e-mails, but I should be a grown up and let it be.
This still sucks though. The lose/lose situation i am in with emotions right now. No matter what I had done, I would still be feeling like crap because of it. I just want things to go back to normal, but I don't think Brandon would so easily give up a "friend" like that, even if he is an arrogant fuckhead. I just dont know if Brandon sees it as me being controlling, or as a consequence of his actions; a sacrifice for our relationship. I really do love him as much as i know how. It's true, I don't completely trust him at the moment because of what happened, but I love him no less. I hope he realizes that, and I hope we can work through this.
School is getting out of control. Im hoping this is normal, i remember being scared last semester, so perhaps I can pull myself out of this too. If you tested me on any class right now, i would fail miserably. I have alot of catching up to do, and with the new apartment, im hoping ill have time to do it. Saturday I want to get everything all set hopefully. This school year has been so shitty. Summer will heal everything. School. stress. relationships. Oh summer why won't you hurry? less than 6 weeks left of school...
Inspire me, Inspire me.
Send me e-mails people. Please? I havent gotten an e-mail in like a week. Not even spam! no lj replies, no hey whats up, no nothing. Im feeling electonically unloved.
He called Brandon on it, but Brandon didn't know about it. Then he called Brandon on why he has been avoided the past few weeks. Brandon told him why, and somehow Mat couldn't get a grip on the fact that a 2 year relationship would come before a 3 month friendship, and acted like a baby, and blocked Brandon from AIM, and facebook, and some of Brandon's friends as well. Brandon isn't happy about it. I feel like a prick for forcing him to do that, but it wasn't my fault! He's the one who lied to me, had he not, then this wouldn't have had to happen.
I was thinking of being a jackass and sending Mat 104 sarcastic apology e-mails, but I should be a grown up and let it be.
This still sucks though. The lose/lose situation i am in with emotions right now. No matter what I had done, I would still be feeling like crap because of it. I just want things to go back to normal, but I don't think Brandon would so easily give up a "friend" like that, even if he is an arrogant fuckhead. I just dont know if Brandon sees it as me being controlling, or as a consequence of his actions; a sacrifice for our relationship. I really do love him as much as i know how. It's true, I don't completely trust him at the moment because of what happened, but I love him no less. I hope he realizes that, and I hope we can work through this.
School is getting out of control. Im hoping this is normal, i remember being scared last semester, so perhaps I can pull myself out of this too. If you tested me on any class right now, i would fail miserably. I have alot of catching up to do, and with the new apartment, im hoping ill have time to do it. Saturday I want to get everything all set hopefully. This school year has been so shitty. Summer will heal everything. School. stress. relationships. Oh summer why won't you hurry? less than 6 weeks left of school...
Inspire me, Inspire me.
Send me e-mails people. Please? I havent gotten an e-mail in like a week. Not even spam! no lj replies, no hey whats up, no nothing. Im feeling electonically unloved.