You meet the man of your dreams and then meet his beautiful wife
School hasn't been in session for a week yet, but already the past 3 days has had more drama than the past 6 weeks. I will try and stay out of the drama as much as possible. I want to be there for the people going through a rough time, but its sooooo damn hard to remain neutral sometimes. Oi vey!
I'm also feeling very very very nervous about the play that's opening next weekend. I keep getting this terrible, horrible, awful, sinking feeling that I'm crap. I know the whole point of our college theater dept. is learning. If I walk away from this experience with even a tidbit of knowledge then I have suceeded. I love how I complain when I don't get the part, b/c I know I can do it, then I freak out when I have it and feel like I'm the worst person for the role. Why these damn contradictions? WHY?
Oh and then I find out this guy I had a crush on has a girlfriend. Damn nice guys who don't realize they're leading a girl on. Of course, it doesn't make me like him any less, but...dammit.
Despite all this I have lingering optimism. Everything that happened this week was for a reason and it'll sort itself out in the end. It's nothing a good bar of dark chocolate won't cure.
I'm also feeling very very very nervous about the play that's opening next weekend. I keep getting this terrible, horrible, awful, sinking feeling that I'm crap. I know the whole point of our college theater dept. is learning. If I walk away from this experience with even a tidbit of knowledge then I have suceeded. I love how I complain when I don't get the part, b/c I know I can do it, then I freak out when I have it and feel like I'm the worst person for the role. Why these damn contradictions? WHY?
Oh and then I find out this guy I had a crush on has a girlfriend. Damn nice guys who don't realize they're leading a girl on. Of course, it doesn't make me like him any less, but...dammit.
Despite all this I have lingering optimism. Everything that happened this week was for a reason and it'll sort itself out in the end. It's nothing a good bar of dark chocolate won't cure.