But I don't want to grow up!
I'm sitting by my open window and the chill wind is making my feet icy. I can hear the buzz of the electrical lines outside and I think of a BNL song Light up my room: "A hydro field cuts through my neighborhood and somehow that always just made me feel good..."
I finally got closure on an open-ended friendship. Danielle and I have played the silent treatment since September, but neither of us have removed each other from friends list. After bluntly confronted her tonight, as ridiculous as it may seem, I removed her from my friends list. Even though I haven't talked to her since September, I still had hope as long as she kept me on her friends list. Now that she's erased I have also lost my final thread of hope. I feel like I've lost a fraction of childhood by losing her. I feel that the world is just a little less silly, because the strangest combination of friends is over. No more Amy & Danielle, the girls who bonded in 8th grade when a classmate, Livia,wouldn't complete a dare to put a stuffed animal cat on her head at a slumber party.
I feel like last year should have made me grow up more than I have, but it has only made me realize how truly young I am. The Neverland in my head has grown more fuzzy since last year, but I have not yet forgotten how to fly.
I finally got closure on an open-ended friendship. Danielle and I have played the silent treatment since September, but neither of us have removed each other from friends list. After bluntly confronted her tonight, as ridiculous as it may seem, I removed her from my friends list. Even though I haven't talked to her since September, I still had hope as long as she kept me on her friends list. Now that she's erased I have also lost my final thread of hope. I feel like I've lost a fraction of childhood by losing her. I feel that the world is just a little less silly, because the strangest combination of friends is over. No more Amy & Danielle, the girls who bonded in 8th grade when a classmate, Livia,wouldn't complete a dare to put a stuffed animal cat on her head at a slumber party.
I feel like last year should have made me grow up more than I have, but it has only made me realize how truly young I am. The Neverland in my head has grown more fuzzy since last year, but I have not yet forgotten how to fly.