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For once, I'm finally giving someone my honest heart
Sometimes its the most amazing feeling to connect so well to someone
but also, that connection is so delicate that one little move can just blow me apart.
I don't know who to believe sometimes...
him,
or all of his friends, who happen to be my good friends too.
I know they are trying to look out for me
but some part of me
just wants to
believe him, because he tells me things
that no one has ever told me
and I want them to be so real.
Maybe I'm living in a fantasy world
with things that are too good to be true

but it killed me last night
when I walked out from behind his house
and i saw him
leaning in, down
shining in the street light
and kissing his girlfriend

She got into her car
I said to everyone    "I'm going to punch him in the face"
so i put both rings on my right hand
and as he walked up to me
with his hands on his face
I told him
take your hands down
and slugged him one.

I don't know how many girls he's fucking
or how many girls think the same about him as I do
and I should be so much wiser
but this just feels so right
its killing me from the inside out