Jul 05, 2002 19:44
I went out again today. Yes! Twice in less than a week, it's a new record.
Unfortunately today wasn't quite as mavellous as Saturday. I have been in a near-constant state of anxiety all day. I wanted to scream on the bus going out, the bus coming back, in the shopping centre and I want to scream now.
I feel extremely bad because I went into the local greengrocer after the stressful shopping trip and was blatantly rude to the till girl, which was someone I actually liked at school. This is partially because the person on the other till was someone I had asked out, and been rejected by, in year 9, who gave me what seemed to be a really accusatory look, and partially because I am by nature an idiot.
I am really angry at myself, and I sent her a text message to apologise for being a tit. I know I'll regret it as soon as she replies because I frankly don't want to be contacted by anyone that I knew between the ages of 11-16, but what can you do.
The up side of the shopping trip is that I got four albums;
Dark Side Of The Moon - Pink Floyd
Rock Action - Mogwai
We Love Life - Pulp
and Once Upon A Time - Siouxsie And The Banshees.
Hopefully this will make up for the pain in my shoulder and wrenching feeling in my gut.
And now, I shall have several pints of cider. Nothing like a depressant to chase the blues away. *rolls eyes*