reflection
I've been wanting to update all night but forcing my self to study :s I don't even really know what I want to update about I just feel like writing. I've been feeling really nostalgic lately, thinking about my past, people, places, things and what has brought me to where I am today. I feel like I'm at a really happy spot in my life right now, ya a boyfriend would be nice but I'm a big believer in fait and I'll meet the right guy when I'm not really looking.
I remember how much I disliked highschool, I loved the music program but that was it. I was always feeling like I didn't belong or fit in anywhere. I used to think things would have been different if I didn't have to wear a backbrace for almost two years, things would have been different. For some reason I've been thinking about those two years alot lately, they made me into a stronger person, I began realise that the people that teased me didn't even really know me I made a few friends and kept some from elementry school. Still I was reserved and quiet and insecure and afraid to let people see who I really was. I'm still not sure what I was afraid of,because I'm such an optimist I always looked on the bright side and made myself think everything was fantastic.
The first time I let myself show through was probably the first time I started drama classes at west. Throughout highschool it was my safe place, where I could walk in the doors with confidance and know I wouldn't be judged. I used to love going to rehersals just to feel like I was a part of somthing special. I miss doing theatre now, I'm afraid to audition for theatre Western shows just because its so competitive and the community theatre's here conflict with summer vacation or exams.
I remember in highschool thinking I was too quiet and shy, thinking noone shared my passion for theatre and I could never really make good friends. When I first walked through the halls of Brescia I remember thinking that just maybe if I slowly begain to let myself show a little something would happen... and it did. I'm finally somewhere where I had the courage to let my real self shine through, I have amaizing friends that I can talk to about anything and decent grades, I'm still singing in choirs and stuff and I'm happy. I really feel that I have become a stronger person because of the things I have had to overcome to get where I am today. Maybe when I'm home I'll take the backbrace out of the back of my closet, where I shoved it and just look at it, maybe even try it on and see if It still fits.
I remember how much I disliked highschool, I loved the music program but that was it. I was always feeling like I didn't belong or fit in anywhere. I used to think things would have been different if I didn't have to wear a backbrace for almost two years, things would have been different. For some reason I've been thinking about those two years alot lately, they made me into a stronger person, I began realise that the people that teased me didn't even really know me I made a few friends and kept some from elementry school. Still I was reserved and quiet and insecure and afraid to let people see who I really was. I'm still not sure what I was afraid of,because I'm such an optimist I always looked on the bright side and made myself think everything was fantastic.
The first time I let myself show through was probably the first time I started drama classes at west. Throughout highschool it was my safe place, where I could walk in the doors with confidance and know I wouldn't be judged. I used to love going to rehersals just to feel like I was a part of somthing special. I miss doing theatre now, I'm afraid to audition for theatre Western shows just because its so competitive and the community theatre's here conflict with summer vacation or exams.
I remember in highschool thinking I was too quiet and shy, thinking noone shared my passion for theatre and I could never really make good friends. When I first walked through the halls of Brescia I remember thinking that just maybe if I slowly begain to let myself show a little something would happen... and it did. I'm finally somewhere where I had the courage to let my real self shine through, I have amaizing friends that I can talk to about anything and decent grades, I'm still singing in choirs and stuff and I'm happy. I really feel that I have become a stronger person because of the things I have had to overcome to get where I am today. Maybe when I'm home I'll take the backbrace out of the back of my closet, where I shoved it and just look at it, maybe even try it on and see if It still fits.