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Me again! (thinking how I updated once in a..oh..er,um,once in a *never*, so I just might try do it more regulary ^_^)
Hn,right now I'm trying to put 2 certain quotes in my gw sig :P. Not successing but I'm still trying,lol.. And,well,what's there to say? Nothin really.. I had a long,long talk over the phone with Mateja today (1,5 hr,woot!) and it was really nice. Tommorrow we do it in person too, coz this last week of school we're not having half the classes. So tommorrow we're off geography, 2 hours, and a few of us has a free hour when the rest is having R.E. So yay..
Also, seriously, if I didn't have gwing right now I think I'd be completely lost. Because it's such a good distraction, it's working for me. I kinda encountered a crisis in my life, where I just feel redundant. I have no skills, no talents, no will, no motivation, *nothing*, and except the school fuss there's nothing in my life. If I have bad grades it's hell, if they're good I'm just..indifferent. And nothing makes sense anymore. I don't know who my friends or enemies are, sometimes I wish all the people would just vanish and/or leave me alone, everything and anything can hurt me, I have the lowest self-esteem ever.. No, wait, actually, it's non-existing at the moment. In general I'm in a very bad mood all the time, and yet most of that time I appear all cheerful. Until someone scratches the surface, that is - that's when I become really nasty.
Let's just say I've been more rude to people in the last week than I have in months before that.
*hugs aly* Glad you're aware and about, hunny.. I'm still a bit suspicious but you can't blame me.. So I'll deff be watching you.. And perhaps I'll even get to talk to you? @_@ <---- puppy dog eyes!!
Hn,right now I'm trying to put 2 certain quotes in my gw sig :P. Not successing but I'm still trying,lol.. And,well,what's there to say? Nothin really.. I had a long,long talk over the phone with Mateja today (1,5 hr,woot!) and it was really nice. Tommorrow we do it in person too, coz this last week of school we're not having half the classes. So tommorrow we're off geography, 2 hours, and a few of us has a free hour when the rest is having R.E. So yay..
Also, seriously, if I didn't have gwing right now I think I'd be completely lost. Because it's such a good distraction, it's working for me. I kinda encountered a crisis in my life, where I just feel redundant. I have no skills, no talents, no will, no motivation, *nothing*, and except the school fuss there's nothing in my life. If I have bad grades it's hell, if they're good I'm just..indifferent. And nothing makes sense anymore. I don't know who my friends or enemies are, sometimes I wish all the people would just vanish and/or leave me alone, everything and anything can hurt me, I have the lowest self-esteem ever.. No, wait, actually, it's non-existing at the moment. In general I'm in a very bad mood all the time, and yet most of that time I appear all cheerful. Until someone scratches the surface, that is - that's when I become really nasty.
Let's just say I've been more rude to people in the last week than I have in months before that.
*hugs aly* Glad you're aware and about, hunny.. I'm still a bit suspicious but you can't blame me.. So I'll deff be watching you.. And perhaps I'll even get to talk to you? @_@ <---- puppy dog eyes!!