im not worth it.

[re_tard]

so here is am

almost homeless

my friends dogged me for my bday, well most of them

i didnt get trashed for my birthday

and im fed up with females

im basically alone again

i guess its best this way atleast i wont hurt anyone

guess the downside is i have little to do since this time around im not addicted to marijuana and therefore actually think about this bumblefuck of a situation.

not to mestion the chances of me being fired and fuck well everything.

why the hell did mum have to move me to this shit hole just to get me stuck here and leave me in the lurch i mean fuck woman work your shit out!

guess this is how its always been though.

i have a gig this sunday night at the brass monkey... woopty doo basil.. i should be more excited than this... but im not.

i loathe most things at the moment, people , people who ignore me, mostly people,
i dont like pretending to be happy just so im not a downer or whatever.

maybe next week will be better.

i hope so.