39 x 18, Is this a real AGE GAP?
I'm feeling a sort of anxiety. Hands sweating, butterflies in the stomach, all those crazy sensations you feel when you are maybe in love.
I just can't be in love. My life has changed so much. I've faced situations no one in my age is ready to face, but that's not the point.
The thing is I'm going out with a 39 years old guy and I'm 18. That's just too much for me and for him. We've been seeing each other for months and somehow we can't stop it, but we would never be together for real, like in a relationship.
He is one of those guys that would lay down with you and just keep looking into your eyes talking about stupid things and laughing.
When we are together the age does not matter, actually it's like it does not exist. The moments we had are immortal, no time would pass, no minute would be count.
When he touches me, somehow it does not feel like an external touch. It's something that does not invade me, it's totally welcomed.
His lips are not soft and when we kiss I feel a friction sensation that sends shivers all over my spine.
I don't know what to think or do. Could he be the man of my life?
Perhaps...
I just don't want to lose what I've built with him, this feeling, but I particularly know it won't work.
Is it a sin if I wish I were a bit older?
I'm going to his house today. I will spent three days with him.
I just can't be in love. My life has changed so much. I've faced situations no one in my age is ready to face, but that's not the point.
The thing is I'm going out with a 39 years old guy and I'm 18. That's just too much for me and for him. We've been seeing each other for months and somehow we can't stop it, but we would never be together for real, like in a relationship.
He is one of those guys that would lay down with you and just keep looking into your eyes talking about stupid things and laughing.
When we are together the age does not matter, actually it's like it does not exist. The moments we had are immortal, no time would pass, no minute would be count.
When he touches me, somehow it does not feel like an external touch. It's something that does not invade me, it's totally welcomed.
His lips are not soft and when we kiss I feel a friction sensation that sends shivers all over my spine.
I don't know what to think or do. Could he be the man of my life?
Perhaps...
I just don't want to lose what I've built with him, this feeling, but I particularly know it won't work.
Is it a sin if I wish I were a bit older?
I'm going to his house today. I will spent three days with him.