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i am truly frustrated with my life. i know things don't go "according to plan" and everything is randomness but I'm pretty sure somewhere along the lines... My life went spiraling down a chaotic fall landing in rocks and went splat at the bottom.
the other day i watched a movie where a korean man lived in a camp his whole life where he was tortured and when he got out money frustrated him so much he preferred the "simple life" that he had in the camp because he just had to survive not worry about everything other people think about.
it made me think about what people do with their lives and how he thinks he had it easier inside the camp rather than the outside.
i don't really know where i'm going with this. and i'm not sure i should compare myself to a korean man that was severely tortured because that is unjust and completely barnacles.
i really want to just start over. take my money, quit my job, drive to chicago and just live.
i think it would be exciting to hitchhike the galaxy but the possibility of being raped and dying comes to mind. :|
bundy, dahmer, gacy.
not on track.
random.
Gotta pick myself back up by realizing I don't need people to be happy. I just need to be.