May 19, 2007 22:01
So, 10 o'clock on a Saturday night... I'm tired. I just went swimming and now I'm checking LJ for the first time in a grip. Yesterday was MB's b-day, and we had good times rocking the Vito's Cafe. Since I didn't sleep well last night and worked this morning, I'm thinking I should take it easy tonight? I have become reacquainted with a bottle Charles Shaw's finest 2005 vintage chardonnay. I drink alone, yeah, with nobody else. The way it's going (so far, 1 bottle wine and little to no side effect...), I may dip into the reserves and become acquainted with a Cabernet Sauveignon or however the fuck you spell it. LiveJournal has helped me realize a few things this night. One being that I do miss Sam and Amanda and Clint and Charlie and lots of people. If you aren't on that list, it's because I needed no reminder of your abscence. The second being that I sincerely do not understand how we're meant to maintain more than 5 or 6 healthy relationships in life. I mean, you get significant other, Mom, Dad, Grandma, brother, and a couple friends in the mix... you're talking about a lot of time. And on top of that you're supposed to make a living? Fuck, I feel like if I spent half as much time as I'd like to spend with the people I love, I'd have very little if any time left for anything but sleep.
I suppose the point is this: It's easy to get wrapped up in life. In fact, it's almost neccessary. And default friendships and stagnant relationships are a terrible byproduct of that goddamn fucked up thing we do every day. When it comes down to it, we pick and choose where and with whom we allot our time. And if I haven't seen you in a long time, it's not that I don't love you or miss you or think about you. It's just that somewhere along the line I made choices, and maybe they weren't always right.
So the main point is:: Shouldn't the people we love have a specific time designated to maintaining their relationships? Should there not be some sort of annual retreat for all of us to really bro down a few days and let each other know how much we mean to one another?
It's just a thought.
Just a Charles Shaw induced, romantic, crazy thought.