i hate this whole right person wrong time thing...

[rdnckchick06907]

so yes i do care very much for someone that i can't be with and it sucks. but that's part of life. jess and jt could tell how i felt. and ang wasn't so sure and i told her. but i know that i can't wait around for it to be the right time, cuz i know he's not. and i'm just not sure what to do. there is this guy that comes into work and he reminds me of someone very specific. the first time he came in the store i thought he was this person i knew. but i never said anything. but tonight he left his card up at the store for me after james said that i thought he was good lookin that james could give him my number. and he asked what my name is, cuz my name tag just says ash. and nothign more. but when james called me up and told me i did a little happy dance. but tonight i came to a realization. that when i begin to think that i'm not good enough for anybody or pretty enough for someone. all these guys seem to pop out of the wood-work. and of course it doesn't help that i dont' have guts to do anythign on my own. i have to ask coworkers to help me out. which is not a bad thing. it's just since last year, i'm not as self-confident as what i used to be. i do have to thank one person. because he told complimented me more in the few days that we got to spend together than i have ever been in a relationship. and that meant a lot. because i never expected you to say those things. and for those few days i felt really special. and i thank you for that.

well i'm out i gotta get up in the morning and work on homework and do some laundry.