'525600 minutes'
*screams in frustration*
This practice is going NOWHERE. The first hour I did yesterday was good - I felt like I was getting better, and actually taking on what my teacher was saying (she decided on Friday that she'd suddenly get picky and change what she was telling me to do) but then I went back later on and it was just scratch scratch squeak squeak + horrible out of tune chords. Argh. And then my wrist started hurting, and I know it's because I'm playing too tense - but I can't work out how to release that. It's taking all of the will-power I have (and distractions) not to start panicking.
I guess it doesn't really help that I have other things on my mind. One of which is the crazy thing about being in the 'same' position as I was this time last year. Ironically, I was more confident of my abilities then than I am now. Even though I know I've improved - the difference is that I've seen my competition. And that's scary. I'm purposely stopping myself getting too hopeful or excited for next year, because now that seems like setting myself up for a fall. I don't want to be as shattered as I was when I was rejected last year. I think I will be though - if I don't get into either course. But then I think about this last year, with all it's ups and downs, I am glad that I did the Foundation year. Even if it's for the pure and simple reason that I have met some truly awesome people, and made some great friends. Which, after all, is what's important. The other thing I've realised is that I am going overseas in 33 days. Since when is it this close??? It's always been the hypothetical situation, even when we were buying tickets and such it just didn't feel real. I don't think it will feel real until I'm there. I am incredibly excited, and kind of freaked out because it'll be the first major trip I've done on my own. I'm hoping I'll tire myself out too much to be homesick.
Speaking of friends, I hung out with one of the ones I met this year (through fb - how funny) on Friday afternoon/night. After a really long trip home from the city (I hate city driving) due to traffic and my shocking sense of direction we headed out to see New Moon. The great thing about having low expectations for something (not having read the books/bought into the hype) is that you are often pleasantly surprised. Judging purely as a movie, it was actually pretty good! I mean, sure, I wanted to slap Bella and tell her to get over it in a certain scene, and I still don't get the sparkly thing - but ah well. Kristen Stewart actually improved. I was impressed. A couple of things I had a bit of a giggle at. The first was, before the movie had started we were sitting outside waiting for the cinema to be cleaned and this girl of about 15 (I think) waiting with her mum. Well, her mum was asking us if it was in cinema 5, and if we were waiting to see New Moon. Then the girl speaks up, and I quote "Mum sit DOWN. You are not going to miss it!" then she turns to us "she's obsessed" N and I sat there quietly chuckling to ourselves for a couple of minutes at the role reversal. XD
Another thing I was laughing at was the reaction from the entire cinema when Jacob first took his shirt off. I completely agreed, but it was just funny. Audible gasps .... hehe. And then, of course, I laughed at all the awkward turtle moments between Bella and Mike. (harpisan: Mike asking Bella to the movies and being misunderstood, that is almost exactly what happened to me, with M) Even though N had warned me that the ending was weird, I was still just like w.t.f. Guess that's because I haven't read the book...
So then, we head home and watch 'The Emperor's New Groove' because we are awesome. Nuff said. XD
Surprisingly we didn't go to sleep all that late - weird for us. Haha.
Well, I'd better get back to trying to practice.
Rdm
This practice is going NOWHERE. The first hour I did yesterday was good - I felt like I was getting better, and actually taking on what my teacher was saying (she decided on Friday that she'd suddenly get picky and change what she was telling me to do) but then I went back later on and it was just scratch scratch squeak squeak + horrible out of tune chords. Argh. And then my wrist started hurting, and I know it's because I'm playing too tense - but I can't work out how to release that. It's taking all of the will-power I have (and distractions) not to start panicking.
I guess it doesn't really help that I have other things on my mind. One of which is the crazy thing about being in the 'same' position as I was this time last year. Ironically, I was more confident of my abilities then than I am now. Even though I know I've improved - the difference is that I've seen my competition. And that's scary. I'm purposely stopping myself getting too hopeful or excited for next year, because now that seems like setting myself up for a fall. I don't want to be as shattered as I was when I was rejected last year. I think I will be though - if I don't get into either course. But then I think about this last year, with all it's ups and downs, I am glad that I did the Foundation year. Even if it's for the pure and simple reason that I have met some truly awesome people, and made some great friends. Which, after all, is what's important. The other thing I've realised is that I am going overseas in 33 days. Since when is it this close??? It's always been the hypothetical situation, even when we were buying tickets and such it just didn't feel real. I don't think it will feel real until I'm there. I am incredibly excited, and kind of freaked out because it'll be the first major trip I've done on my own. I'm hoping I'll tire myself out too much to be homesick.
Speaking of friends, I hung out with one of the ones I met this year (through fb - how funny) on Friday afternoon/night. After a really long trip home from the city (I hate city driving) due to traffic and my shocking sense of direction we headed out to see New Moon. The great thing about having low expectations for something (not having read the books/bought into the hype) is that you are often pleasantly surprised. Judging purely as a movie, it was actually pretty good! I mean, sure, I wanted to slap Bella and tell her to get over it in a certain scene, and I still don't get the sparkly thing - but ah well. Kristen Stewart actually improved. I was impressed. A couple of things I had a bit of a giggle at. The first was, before the movie had started we were sitting outside waiting for the cinema to be cleaned and this girl of about 15 (I think) waiting with her mum. Well, her mum was asking us if it was in cinema 5, and if we were waiting to see New Moon. Then the girl speaks up, and I quote "Mum sit DOWN. You are not going to miss it!" then she turns to us "she's obsessed" N and I sat there quietly chuckling to ourselves for a couple of minutes at the role reversal. XD
Another thing I was laughing at was the reaction from the entire cinema when Jacob first took his shirt off. I completely agreed, but it was just funny. Audible gasps .... hehe. And then, of course, I laughed at all the awkward turtle moments between Bella and Mike. (harpisan: Mike asking Bella to the movies and being misunderstood, that is almost exactly what happened to me, with M) Even though N had warned me that the ending was weird, I was still just like w.t.f. Guess that's because I haven't read the book...
So then, we head home and watch 'The Emperor's New Groove' because we are awesome. Nuff said. XD
Surprisingly we didn't go to sleep all that late - weird for us. Haha.
Well, I'd better get back to trying to practice.
Rdm