i want you to know that......
just back from the pool. im tired now but cannot go to sleep. summer is coming to an end fairly quickly. i feel like there is not enough time to do the things i still want to do. there is not enough time for me to get a new job but i still need money.
this sunday is a year for me and jonathan. and yes i know we were apart for about a month and we have decided that month doesnt matter and we didnt want to start all over so we just picked up where we left off. and i doesnt seem like its already been a year. if both of us werent so broke it would be a real anniversary. but since we dont have much money we arent getting each other presents and we are just gonna go eat at olive garden.
my parents finally got me a student loan after much stress, arguing, bitching and just really pissing each other off. so hopefully everything is worked out now and there will be no more bumps in the road. i will be leaving august 21st to a completely different environment. im hoping this is going to be good for me. meet some new people get back into the groove of school and have some new experiences.
ive learned a lot about my friends this summer. people arent always what you think they are. the people i thought would always be there for me, the people that always accused me of not being scare of loosing them have managed to prove me wrong and that they are not afraid to loose me. i thought i was out of highschool and all the drama that went along with it, but i guess i was wrong. but like i said its time to go away to a new place with new people.
ive also learned that no one in my family, except my dad, support or believe me that i can do well in school. my mom sister and uncle all think i am going to fail. its quite depressing that my own family doesnt think i will do well. my dad told me to come back and just laugh in their faces when i do well. i mean they arent bad people and they didnt tell me they think i will fail (they told my dad)but its just kinda messed up you would think they would support me in whatever i do. oh well.
if none of this makes sense sorry its kinda late and im half paying attention to what im typing and half watching boy meets world. this show is suprisingly still entertaining to me. but anyways im gonna go make some food.
this sunday is a year for me and jonathan. and yes i know we were apart for about a month and we have decided that month doesnt matter and we didnt want to start all over so we just picked up where we left off. and i doesnt seem like its already been a year. if both of us werent so broke it would be a real anniversary. but since we dont have much money we arent getting each other presents and we are just gonna go eat at olive garden.
my parents finally got me a student loan after much stress, arguing, bitching and just really pissing each other off. so hopefully everything is worked out now and there will be no more bumps in the road. i will be leaving august 21st to a completely different environment. im hoping this is going to be good for me. meet some new people get back into the groove of school and have some new experiences.
ive learned a lot about my friends this summer. people arent always what you think they are. the people i thought would always be there for me, the people that always accused me of not being scare of loosing them have managed to prove me wrong and that they are not afraid to loose me. i thought i was out of highschool and all the drama that went along with it, but i guess i was wrong. but like i said its time to go away to a new place with new people.
ive also learned that no one in my family, except my dad, support or believe me that i can do well in school. my mom sister and uncle all think i am going to fail. its quite depressing that my own family doesnt think i will do well. my dad told me to come back and just laugh in their faces when i do well. i mean they arent bad people and they didnt tell me they think i will fail (they told my dad)but its just kinda messed up you would think they would support me in whatever i do. oh well.
if none of this makes sense sorry its kinda late and im half paying attention to what im typing and half watching boy meets world. this show is suprisingly still entertaining to me. but anyways im gonna go make some food.