Feb 17, 2003 00:01
Some times I feel like I want to pursue a relationship, find the special someone, Hook-up be happy. But that's been my whole life. I have constantly pursued relationships and haven't gone anywhere in them. I can't settle for just a normal girl. Like I couldn't 'date' someone who isn't gorgeous, or someone who didn't fit the bill for a potential mate. So it would be healthy sometimes to think that I should just pursue sexual relationships and learn how to please women and myself. But then if I do that I could Alienate the person I potentially may fall in love with. Which brings up another issue that people can't understand. There can be people you just want to have sex with and not be involved with. This doesn't mean that you want to slut them out or make them a hoe. You just strictly could only share in sexual exploration with them. You are physically but not emotionally attracted to the person, thus you would like to share in an experience that both of you can enjoy and move on from there. Like personally I think I'd rather have my first time be with a friend that someone I was in love with. Just because you could get feed back and ideas to work on. And sex can just make the friendship better. Sex can save friendships that are falling apart too!! But back on track, I wish I wasn't in limbo 90 percent of the time. If I didn't have feelings for someone again I wouldn't be struggling, I'd just go live the Rock and Roll mythos. GAWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!! Anyway waiting for the Yoa Jersey to come in the mail so I can Rock it like a MUG!! Schweet Schweet. So I'll see you later. Comment you Bastards!!