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I came by a little bit of inspiration tonight, so I thought I'd transcribe that to my livejournal. It was not inspiration in it's traditional sense. Anyway, here it goes...
Most drives home from work are riddled with looking back at the workday and thinking how certain situations should have been handled differently. Or, I think about how I need to make some kind of change in my life...be it one towards a healthy lifestyle or one regarding my attitudes towards certain people. Not tonight however. Tonight was a crisp, cold night and all I could do is listen to U2 and think about how much change has entered my life in the past year.
I was about to enter a somewhat sad and depressive state when I looked out the window and my gaze fell upon a lake I was driving by. There was some kind of pull towards this scene. Looking at the lake, all one could see was fog rising up from the surface of the water. On a dark night such as tonight, a white streetlight in the background did the job a full moon would do once a month. Call me crazy, but there was something about this view that just drew me in. I parked my uncle's car, which temporarily serves as my commuter, on the side of the road. I grabbed my Sansa and the accompanying headphones out of my bag and headed over towards the lake. I settled down on the embankment and put on some Karsh Kale. The clear night sky teeming with stars, the beautifully cold night, and the sounds of Karsh warming my ears. All I could do was question my role and my worth this magnanimous universe we call The Milky Way. Looking up, and I know how cliched this sounds, I realized how insignificant I was in the grand scheme of things. And I don't just mean the universe, I mean the Earth. I am one of over six billion people who inhabit this spherical rock that is held in place by the gravitational pull of a star 92.9 million miles away.
Sorry, I went off on a tangent there. The bottom line I was trying to get to is this...
While laying in the grass and listening to music, I observed many stars...of which I could only make out Orion's Belt. I looked for the North Star...and found it. While looking around, I found another star. It seemed to "twinkle" more than the North Star, as if it were communicating with me. The more I stared at that star, the more I started to get this feeling that the star and I were connected in some way. Say what you want, but for some reason I could not get my eyes off that star. I lay there for another 15-20 minutes to see if something would click in my mind and I'd be able to see something with a newfound clarity. Unfortunately, I came up with nothing.
You know how people say that when someone you care about passes away, they become a star? I'd like to believe that about this star. I'd like to believe that my aunt was looking down at me and maybe trying to say something but I was too wound up in my little trials and tribulations to notice.
I wish I had a chance to talk to her more when I last saw her. She always knew the right thing to say at any given time. I miss her...
Most drives home from work are riddled with looking back at the workday and thinking how certain situations should have been handled differently. Or, I think about how I need to make some kind of change in my life...be it one towards a healthy lifestyle or one regarding my attitudes towards certain people. Not tonight however. Tonight was a crisp, cold night and all I could do is listen to U2 and think about how much change has entered my life in the past year.
I was about to enter a somewhat sad and depressive state when I looked out the window and my gaze fell upon a lake I was driving by. There was some kind of pull towards this scene. Looking at the lake, all one could see was fog rising up from the surface of the water. On a dark night such as tonight, a white streetlight in the background did the job a full moon would do once a month. Call me crazy, but there was something about this view that just drew me in. I parked my uncle's car, which temporarily serves as my commuter, on the side of the road. I grabbed my Sansa and the accompanying headphones out of my bag and headed over towards the lake. I settled down on the embankment and put on some Karsh Kale. The clear night sky teeming with stars, the beautifully cold night, and the sounds of Karsh warming my ears. All I could do was question my role and my worth this magnanimous universe we call The Milky Way. Looking up, and I know how cliched this sounds, I realized how insignificant I was in the grand scheme of things. And I don't just mean the universe, I mean the Earth. I am one of over six billion people who inhabit this spherical rock that is held in place by the gravitational pull of a star 92.9 million miles away.
Sorry, I went off on a tangent there. The bottom line I was trying to get to is this...
While laying in the grass and listening to music, I observed many stars...of which I could only make out Orion's Belt. I looked for the North Star...and found it. While looking around, I found another star. It seemed to "twinkle" more than the North Star, as if it were communicating with me. The more I stared at that star, the more I started to get this feeling that the star and I were connected in some way. Say what you want, but for some reason I could not get my eyes off that star. I lay there for another 15-20 minutes to see if something would click in my mind and I'd be able to see something with a newfound clarity. Unfortunately, I came up with nothing.
You know how people say that when someone you care about passes away, they become a star? I'd like to believe that about this star. I'd like to believe that my aunt was looking down at me and maybe trying to say something but I was too wound up in my little trials and tribulations to notice.
I wish I had a chance to talk to her more when I last saw her. She always knew the right thing to say at any given time. I miss her...