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conrad0082 (9:01:48 PM): so you never answered my question last time i talked to you
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:02:47 PM): what was that
conrad0082 (9:03:21 PM): have you ever heard of livejournal?
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:03:53 PM): no
conrad0082 (9:04:23 PM): okay
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:04:31 PM): why
conrad0082 (9:06:05 PM): b/c i was writing in mine the other day and i realized that i might have like told you to look at it before and just forgot
conrad0082 (9:06:57 PM): i just basically wanted to know if youd ever read mine, cause then id be emberassed and have to apologize for some stuff probably....
conrad0082 (9:07:03 PM): but i probably could have left all that out
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:07:14 PM): read your what
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:07:17 PM): profile?
conrad0082 (9:07:21 PM): no livejournal
conrad0082 (9:08:14 PM): its like if you posted something on your myspace blogs like an online journal your friends can read and stuff
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:08:25 PM): send it to me
conrad0082 (9:09:00 PM): no i'm not giving it to you now
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:09:29 PM): why not
conrad0082 (9:09:34 PM): i was just trying to pull damage control cause i was almost certain i had given you the link once way back when we were dating
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:09:51 PM): sendit to me
conrad0082 (9:10:30 PM): you don't want to read it
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:10:44 PM): yes i do
conrad0082 (9:12:04 PM): no you don't. i know you, trust me i know you wouldn't want to hear (or read i guess) some of the things in it
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:12:22 PM): i want to read it, i really do
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:12:37 PM): blah on u if u dontsend it
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:12:38 PM): lol
conrad0082 (9:13:24 PM): no you don't it will only emberass me and piss you off and we'll end up talking... probably never again
conrad0082 (9:13:26 PM): so blah on you
conrad0082 (9:13:30 PM): and your little dog too
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:13:41 PM): please just send it to me
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:13:47 PM): now u haqve me begging
conrad0082 (9:14:04 PM): you begging? you act like thats something new
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:14:14 PM): hahahahah
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:14:20 PM): send it
conrad0082 (9:14:39 PM): why ?
conrad0082 (9:14:44 PM): give me ten good reasons
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:14:56 PM): i'm sexy
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:14:59 PM): i'm dumb
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:15:03 PM): i'm a guy
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:15:07 PM): i have abig butt
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:15:11 PM): and other things
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:15:21 PM): u should
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:15:24 PM): and u wnat to
conrad0082 (9:15:52 PM): no comment on your sexy (because i can't), your dumb and your a guy are negatives, your big butt is a plus one i guess, but that doesn't leave you with many GOOD reasons
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:16:23 PM): so, since i got one u have to send it to me
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:16:31 PM): u promised
conrad0082 (9:17:16 PM): no... i said 10, you gave me 1
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:17:31 PM): i gav eu alot, u just like one
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:17:42 PM): so i tried and u loose, so nowu have to send it to me
conrad0082 (9:17:59 PM): its lose
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:18:10 PM): oh yeah
conrad0082 (9:18:11 PM): loose is like ... a whore has a loose pussy or something
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:18:29 PM): well u lose so now u have to send it to me
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:20:25 PM): well, whats taking so long
conrad0082 (9:21:04 PM): oh boy don't bitch to me about not responding quick enough
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:23:08 PM): well, u gonna send it
conrad0082 (9:23:12 PM): no
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:23:15 PM): yes
conrad0082 (9:23:20 PM): no
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:23:23 PM): is it negative
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:23:28 PM): about me
conrad0082 (9:23:37 PM): i shouldn't have said anything, except i thought you already had it
conrad0082 (9:23:42 PM): No
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:23:49 PM): whats it about
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:25:20 PM): whats it about
conrad0082 (9:25:25 PM): its not bad stuff i'm not using it to trash you its just my own thoughts about stuff and some of it includes you and like my being in kansas and stuff and i just think you wouldn't want to hear all of it
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:25:26 PM): whats it about
conrad0082 (9:26:04 PM): yeah tehrse alot of entries you could probably read and be like whatever but theres some stuff that would probably stop us from being friends at all anymore
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:26:31 PM): so, there is bad stuff about me
conrad0082 (9:27:13 PM): No its not bad
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:27:26 PM): then why wouldnt we talk anymore
conrad0082 (9:28:18 PM): it just stuff that would probably make you change the way you feel about us being friends
conrad0082 (9:33:08 PM): Soooooooooo
So he almost caught me on this thing.
Fortunately i don't think he'd figure out how to get to my joural. We had more talkey talk after that... some of it reaching on inappropriate... the way we used to talk. and that hurts because i want to respond, but i know i can't.. it just wouldn't be right. Karma's a bitch and i won't let myself be the other woman (well discluding the pat incident, i didn't know then..) He jokingly said i love you to me.. god was that a killer.
But i think i handled that well... i did the right thing in not letting him see it. the easy thing would have been to be like yep read it, and let him know... but i can't. He's my friend before any of my other feelings and he has a girlfriend (whos like his future wife ... gag) and hes happy so i can't interfer. I can't and its killing me.
Today really sucked. the pass out at work, no more fla, this whole almost getting caught with jeff reading this shit about him, and just stuff.
I want a cigarette so bad right now... but damn my luck i'm out.
ARGHHH
at least my head aches are gone... for now.
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:02:47 PM): what was that
conrad0082 (9:03:21 PM): have you ever heard of livejournal?
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:03:53 PM): no
conrad0082 (9:04:23 PM): okay
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:04:31 PM): why
conrad0082 (9:06:05 PM): b/c i was writing in mine the other day and i realized that i might have like told you to look at it before and just forgot
conrad0082 (9:06:57 PM): i just basically wanted to know if youd ever read mine, cause then id be emberassed and have to apologize for some stuff probably....
conrad0082 (9:07:03 PM): but i probably could have left all that out
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:07:14 PM): read your what
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:07:17 PM): profile?
conrad0082 (9:07:21 PM): no livejournal
conrad0082 (9:08:14 PM): its like if you posted something on your myspace blogs like an online journal your friends can read and stuff
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:08:25 PM): send it to me
conrad0082 (9:09:00 PM): no i'm not giving it to you now
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:09:29 PM): why not
conrad0082 (9:09:34 PM): i was just trying to pull damage control cause i was almost certain i had given you the link once way back when we were dating
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:09:51 PM): sendit to me
conrad0082 (9:10:30 PM): you don't want to read it
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:10:44 PM): yes i do
conrad0082 (9:12:04 PM): no you don't. i know you, trust me i know you wouldn't want to hear (or read i guess) some of the things in it
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:12:22 PM): i want to read it, i really do
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:12:37 PM): blah on u if u dontsend it
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:12:38 PM): lol
conrad0082 (9:13:24 PM): no you don't it will only emberass me and piss you off and we'll end up talking... probably never again
conrad0082 (9:13:26 PM): so blah on you
conrad0082 (9:13:30 PM): and your little dog too
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:13:41 PM): please just send it to me
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:13:47 PM): now u haqve me begging
conrad0082 (9:14:04 PM): you begging? you act like thats something new
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:14:14 PM): hahahahah
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:14:20 PM): send it
conrad0082 (9:14:39 PM): why ?
conrad0082 (9:14:44 PM): give me ten good reasons
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:14:56 PM): i'm sexy
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:14:59 PM): i'm dumb
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:15:03 PM): i'm a guy
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:15:07 PM): i have abig butt
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:15:11 PM): and other things
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:15:21 PM): u should
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:15:24 PM): and u wnat to
conrad0082 (9:15:52 PM): no comment on your sexy (because i can't), your dumb and your a guy are negatives, your big butt is a plus one i guess, but that doesn't leave you with many GOOD reasons
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:16:23 PM): so, since i got one u have to send it to me
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:16:31 PM): u promised
conrad0082 (9:17:16 PM): no... i said 10, you gave me 1
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:17:31 PM): i gav eu alot, u just like one
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:17:42 PM): so i tried and u loose, so nowu have to send it to me
conrad0082 (9:17:59 PM): its lose
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:18:10 PM): oh yeah
conrad0082 (9:18:11 PM): loose is like ... a whore has a loose pussy or something
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:18:29 PM): well u lose so now u have to send it to me
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:20:25 PM): well, whats taking so long
conrad0082 (9:21:04 PM): oh boy don't bitch to me about not responding quick enough
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:23:08 PM): well, u gonna send it
conrad0082 (9:23:12 PM): no
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:23:15 PM): yes
conrad0082 (9:23:20 PM): no
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:23:23 PM): is it negative
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:23:28 PM): about me
conrad0082 (9:23:37 PM): i shouldn't have said anything, except i thought you already had it
conrad0082 (9:23:42 PM): No
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:23:49 PM): whats it about
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:25:20 PM): whats it about
conrad0082 (9:25:25 PM): its not bad stuff i'm not using it to trash you its just my own thoughts about stuff and some of it includes you and like my being in kansas and stuff and i just think you wouldn't want to hear all of it
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:25:26 PM): whats it about
conrad0082 (9:26:04 PM): yeah tehrse alot of entries you could probably read and be like whatever but theres some stuff that would probably stop us from being friends at all anymore
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:26:31 PM): so, there is bad stuff about me
conrad0082 (9:27:13 PM): No its not bad
CAMAROCRAZY496 (9:27:26 PM): then why wouldnt we talk anymore
conrad0082 (9:28:18 PM): it just stuff that would probably make you change the way you feel about us being friends
conrad0082 (9:33:08 PM): Soooooooooo
So he almost caught me on this thing.
Fortunately i don't think he'd figure out how to get to my joural. We had more talkey talk after that... some of it reaching on inappropriate... the way we used to talk. and that hurts because i want to respond, but i know i can't.. it just wouldn't be right. Karma's a bitch and i won't let myself be the other woman (well discluding the pat incident, i didn't know then..) He jokingly said i love you to me.. god was that a killer.
But i think i handled that well... i did the right thing in not letting him see it. the easy thing would have been to be like yep read it, and let him know... but i can't. He's my friend before any of my other feelings and he has a girlfriend (whos like his future wife ... gag) and hes happy so i can't interfer. I can't and its killing me.
Today really sucked. the pass out at work, no more fla, this whole almost getting caught with jeff reading this shit about him, and just stuff.
I want a cigarette so bad right now... but damn my luck i'm out.
ARGHHH
at least my head aches are gone... for now.