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wow, it has been a long time. things have been interesting. first of all i have confession to make. last week end i had a little to drink. which i thought would not be that big of a deal for me(i thought i could handle it). turnes out i cant. for the first tome sinc i had left, i have had issues with memories from my past as well as struggles with sin. and to top it off i am more comfortable with wanting to drink which a bad thing. i know whatg i need to do and am working on giving it up to god. on a lighter note i get to go to disney and or universal stodios tomorrow thats cool. i really miss every body back at home, and reall want o confide in something like a journal like this but havent done so for a while for fear of volnerbility. i realise that i need to deal with that if i am going to not just letting god heal my heart but to grow in christ as well. i also have to realise (even though i know) that here i am surrounded by those who wont judge me. and even if they (people in general) did that is on them because i cant control what other people do. that is something else i need to deal with.