aaargh
why is there so many unanswered questions. and why do they seem to hurt so much. i want to take tthe hurt away from my friends. the last thing i would want to happen to any one has happened to the ones who i hold dear. and even worse it was by the one that i least expected it to come from. why them God how can you allow someone to do something like that and have him be supported and have you daughters seem like thay have lost it all. he never hurt me directly but by hurting them he hurt me. (and when i hurt why do i have to hurt my self). i want to hate him. but i cant. and the ones who i thought would tell me the truth have lied to me. i do believe her,part of me doesnt but too manu pieces fit and she wouldnt lie. God how could this happen to your people. and why. help me to forgive and to help the others. and show me how to deal with this with out hurting my self. things are so hectic and crazy i feel like im drowning inside. free from this prison within my self. and save me and my family from all harm.