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I hurt a really good person today.
Steve may have caused a lot of rifts, but he didn't do it intentionally. I really don't think that guy has a mean bone in his body, and he was just..infatuated with me. And if I'm honest, it was nice to have that for a little while, and I think I was more attracted to that than anything else.
But I ended it. And it sucks, because above all else he's one of my best friends, and I love hanging out with him. And I know I hurt him, and I know work is going to be weird now. But it was the right thing to do, I know it was. For more reasons than I can even say here. There are some things I just have to keep to myself, you know?
I just worry it was all for nothing.
But then again. I think I'll be okay. I'm really trying not to worry so much about things I can't control. I've done a lot of thinking today. I think I can find some direction in all of this.
Steve may have caused a lot of rifts, but he didn't do it intentionally. I really don't think that guy has a mean bone in his body, and he was just..infatuated with me. And if I'm honest, it was nice to have that for a little while, and I think I was more attracted to that than anything else.
But I ended it. And it sucks, because above all else he's one of my best friends, and I love hanging out with him. And I know I hurt him, and I know work is going to be weird now. But it was the right thing to do, I know it was. For more reasons than I can even say here. There are some things I just have to keep to myself, you know?
I just worry it was all for nothing.
But then again. I think I'll be okay. I'm really trying not to worry so much about things I can't control. I've done a lot of thinking today. I think I can find some direction in all of this.