Sunday night
I should probably update, because i can't sleep right now & I can't smoke because i'm quitting. Why quitting? because i was very sick last week and had to go to the ER cause i couldn't breathe. That was scary, now i'm not smoking. I had a viral infection in my lungs. Nothing serious, but aggravated by the stress and smoking.
So Massacusetts. it's an interesting place. I love the work i am doing. I love being in an amphitheatre. My coworkers and I aren't "gelling" yet. I am too aggressive, and have too many opinions. I'm too "new york". Oh well. The funny thing is - i'm so NOT new york. But that's what happens when you move around a lot. I miss random things, but i'm enjoying being in my own apartment. I'm enjoying listening to my own head. I've been blocking it out for a while. and i love being close to my family. my mom said to me one night out in CT (i know!) with my best friends - the people that 6 years ago - they were my everything. she said - new york was eating you alive. which is so weird, cause i don't think it was. I mean i was unhappy, but it's funny how other people perceive things. So i'm here. and i'm enjoying it.
we'll see what happens next :-)
I'll be in FL for xmas, and then back here for new years, where i'll be with some combination of members of my family, but i expect lots of visits in January and Feb!
So Massacusetts. it's an interesting place. I love the work i am doing. I love being in an amphitheatre. My coworkers and I aren't "gelling" yet. I am too aggressive, and have too many opinions. I'm too "new york". Oh well. The funny thing is - i'm so NOT new york. But that's what happens when you move around a lot. I miss random things, but i'm enjoying being in my own apartment. I'm enjoying listening to my own head. I've been blocking it out for a while. and i love being close to my family. my mom said to me one night out in CT (i know!) with my best friends - the people that 6 years ago - they were my everything. she said - new york was eating you alive. which is so weird, cause i don't think it was. I mean i was unhappy, but it's funny how other people perceive things. So i'm here. and i'm enjoying it.
we'll see what happens next :-)
I'll be in FL for xmas, and then back here for new years, where i'll be with some combination of members of my family, but i expect lots of visits in January and Feb!