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if lj lets me update today...stupid freakin crap.
anyway..the backdrops are going well. i've only got 2 more panels and the door to paint..and then i have to put second coats on.. hopefully by then, the mini gym will be available. i hope they sterilize it after those damned wrestlers got in there. i dont want ringworm..
so, i tried to update on monday, but lj wouldnt let me..as has been common for the past few days..so i updated my xanga..
heres i'm giving everything i have to help out my friends. everything extra i have is being poured into getting them back to being their normal selves. i think if i mapped out my heart, it would be like this
50% is dedicated to eric(RIP baby)
20% is for getting b back on her feet
15% for k, i know she doesnt need my help to get better
10% for school and all things pertaining to school(like the play and miss point high)
5% work
no time for myself.. no time for my other friends..everything has to be put on hold.. my number one priority is being there 150% for b and helping her through this difficult time. i'll sacrifice my time to help her.. i dont want her to get pulled deeper into everything and i know that, even though her decisions hurt me, that if i turn my back on her now, there will be no one left to help her, and shes proven that she cannot do it on her own..not yet anyway. i'm scared that i'm not going to know how to help, but i'm not giving up. i refuse to let her slip again.
as for k, i know that she is strong enough to pull through her ordeal alright, but i know that i'm going to have to do my best to help her in anyway i can. i dont know how to help her either..i feel like i'm in a maze and i have nothing to guide me.
school's overwhelming, what with spanish and that presentation looming over my head, ap physics and its challenges, english essays, play rehearsals, painting sets, painting 6 girls and johnny depp onto a 400sq. ft. canvas in a little over a month, passing cpr class(or failing and not graduating)
i had to relax my work schedule to 2-3 days a week because of all the school stuff as well, but thats okay, because i really need the time now a lot more than i need the money. on the bright side, cindy's gonna give me a raise in the summer so i dont have to get a second job ! $7.50!!! that was good news
i need to go sketch out some ideas for the miss point high backdrops and get some sleep. so long
thats it for me now. i'm out of here.
ps dad got me the garden state soundtrack for v-day. DAD ROCKS! its good. i suggest you check both it, and the movie, out
anyway..the backdrops are going well. i've only got 2 more panels and the door to paint..and then i have to put second coats on.. hopefully by then, the mini gym will be available. i hope they sterilize it after those damned wrestlers got in there. i dont want ringworm..
so, i tried to update on monday, but lj wouldnt let me..as has been common for the past few days..so i updated my xanga..
heres i'm giving everything i have to help out my friends. everything extra i have is being poured into getting them back to being their normal selves. i think if i mapped out my heart, it would be like this
50% is dedicated to eric(RIP baby)
20% is for getting b back on her feet
15% for k, i know she doesnt need my help to get better
10% for school and all things pertaining to school(like the play and miss point high)
5% work
no time for myself.. no time for my other friends..everything has to be put on hold.. my number one priority is being there 150% for b and helping her through this difficult time. i'll sacrifice my time to help her.. i dont want her to get pulled deeper into everything and i know that, even though her decisions hurt me, that if i turn my back on her now, there will be no one left to help her, and shes proven that she cannot do it on her own..not yet anyway. i'm scared that i'm not going to know how to help, but i'm not giving up. i refuse to let her slip again.
as for k, i know that she is strong enough to pull through her ordeal alright, but i know that i'm going to have to do my best to help her in anyway i can. i dont know how to help her either..i feel like i'm in a maze and i have nothing to guide me.
school's overwhelming, what with spanish and that presentation looming over my head, ap physics and its challenges, english essays, play rehearsals, painting sets, painting 6 girls and johnny depp onto a 400sq. ft. canvas in a little over a month, passing cpr class(or failing and not graduating)
i had to relax my work schedule to 2-3 days a week because of all the school stuff as well, but thats okay, because i really need the time now a lot more than i need the money. on the bright side, cindy's gonna give me a raise in the summer so i dont have to get a second job ! $7.50!!! that was good news
i need to go sketch out some ideas for the miss point high backdrops and get some sleep. so long
thats it for me now. i'm out of here.
ps dad got me the garden state soundtrack for v-day. DAD ROCKS! its good. i suggest you check both it, and the movie, out