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Monday, February 16, 2004
Ok so i Typed out what all i did this Friday and some of Saterday, but never finished so i just left it up and and was goin to finish it later but I went to sleep after talkin to Brian for about 3 hours, or so then my computer shut down and i lost it all. So i don't really want to go into it again but i will tell you that i did Have a Blast, I mean it was probly the one most memerable weekend i have HaD..... It did leave me thinking sunday as we layed in bed talking, I really don't know how to just drop this so im just goin to quote it " I had to meet you for the fact that i was already attached to you by our conversations we have had on the phone, it was driving me crazy not to meet you, then when i did meet you my feelings i had just jumped, you are just as adorable in person if not more so then on the phone, the physical aspect is Amazing, you are totally hot, and when we were laying in bed it just felt so RIGHT, then all the drama broke out b/c i was with you, and i felt bad that i caused that and i felt kinda outsided by that, buy yeah anyways i have fallen for you and i really want to make this work, i know its goin to be, NOT hard but take effort, i really dont know how to explain it but nothing can be effortfull if you are truly in it, and i really truly want to be in it, with all my love and time", I am truly thinking that i am goin to move up there this summer, it was a completly different world up there, Brian tells me that i would get in trouble up there and he is probly right, but i know i would stay out of trouble with him by my side. Why would i need to go out and find trouble when i am content stayin at home and talkin to him, i am for real, for instance when we went to the bar we sat up in a section kinda away from everything and talked, for im guessing 2 hours, you know thats usually nothing but we were at the club and there was a bunch of ppl around and lots of things to do, but i just couldn't move away from him, he's like a drug and im addicted to him, its true he left it up to me about what was goin to come of this and i didn't say anything, for the fact that i already knew the answere to it, i Did want to do it and i know what its goin to take, but i didnt say anything i just layed there. I have Fallen for him SO HARD, Things after that kinda went well, but he had to get to work and i needed to get back to BG, my gosh my heart fell out when i said bye, I mean i spent every moment with him for 2 days str8. I became acustumed by it, i could have just dropped school and stayed up there, if i had something to go while he was at work i would have stayed up there till today and just spent all night talkin and holding him..... All you people out there who know me know that i never feel this way. Its a wall that i kept up to keep everyone out, but what can i say he jumped my fence, no pun intended, and he is all up in my world, goodness this just sounds bad, but anywho, I want to make it work and i know that he likes me the same and i get that sick to my stomach, i want to puke feeling when i am around him, NO thats A GOOD THING, But i really don't want to bore anyone but Yeah on that note Later........Alex Robin
Currently Playing
So into You [CD5/Cassette Single]
By Tamia
Im so into you! *Brian*
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Sunday, February 15, 2004
having a blast in L-Ville, I will hit you up when i get back in the BG... Love shout out to all my PPL's In NashVegas..... Later Alex Robin
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Thursday, February 12, 2004
Ok this one is a Personal entry, I'm still not sure Why I started thinking this but here we go: " Will you critisize me as I sit and Cry?"
Silence thickens and soon I start to wonder...... I had, for the lack of a better phrase, a change of mind sunday. After staying up all night then all say with Jenna for reasons of sanity i decided to get some sleep aroundn 3pm. of course with me needing and wanting the sleep , I couldn't. There was a parety in my head, ok it was more like a conference. thinkgs hit me in a new light some good but most bad, well not bad as in tm horrable just as in how my life has takedn this drastic U-turn into myself. I am what i use to make fun of. I just don't know, Brian has me thinking. Plus my Horoscope said learn all you can from someone older, so you don't go thro it. Plus with these feelings i have are getting worse. Am i setting myself up for a CLIFF DIVE. Really Louisville and Nashville. Long Distance... Its not that i don't trust him its the fact that if i don't get to see him at somepoint its goin to kill me. I don't know i havnt even meet him yet. That comes this weekend, But with me in BG and Him in Louisville Thats not to Bad, but what about this summer, who knows if it gets serious I mihgt just move up there damn what has gotten into me im 19 and starting to think about the rest of my life with this person Ive never been in this situation with anyone, well i guess ill find out how this could turn out from this weekend, this past weekend left me regreting some events. yep found myself kissing someone and then i found myself running to the car to get the hell out of there its not that i did anything wronge for the fact that there is nothing b/t us as in a relationship but i still couldn't believe i did it. "How could i do that, im talkin to brian" this smacked me in the Face, WHACK! i just wanted to just call him and tell him, i knew he was up, i txt'd him he was @ a friends house, so he couldn't talk. so i had no one to talk to Jenna was tweaked tollin really lot of help she was so thats why i couldn't think, I did get to talk to him tho, I really waned to tell him how i felt about him but i was reserved for the fact that i didn't wan tto sound as if i was a lunatic but thank god he told me what ihe was thinking and it was the same as what i was thinking,, htat was a big relief.....But still what am i goin to do if we do hit it off and start dateing? Im getting ahead of myself, NO EXPECTATIONS...... I know i have a friend for life but i can see more in it...... I still don't knw me and dana are suppose to get an apartment together but im not goin to go to MTSU next year, so who knows Im planning on attending Western for another year, So if she wants to come up here then that will be fine and work out great. But i do know im not stayin in Nashville this summer, well not at home atleast, I need to get out and live on my own, and by that not with my parents. I want to live my lufe my true life, Boy I don't know how i would tell them if i did move to louisville I thinki i might just say up here, look sere i go again getting ahead of myself, who knows im just tired of living a lie, ive grown used to my drunken weekends and hidden life from most ppl, ive been tellin more and more ppl about my life.... not everything just more about not being as secrative, Most of my friends still love me and i know that will never change, But i really don't know why i have been thinking about this all of a sudden so, on that NOTE im outta here, you can take this as you will,.......
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Ok so i Typed out what all i did this Friday and some of Saterday, but never finished so i just left it up and and was goin to finish it later but I went to sleep after talkin to Brian for about 3 hours, or so then my computer shut down and i lost it all. So i don't really want to go into it again but i will tell you that i did Have a Blast, I mean it was probly the one most memerable weekend i have HaD..... It did leave me thinking sunday as we layed in bed talking, I really don't know how to just drop this so im just goin to quote it " I had to meet you for the fact that i was already attached to you by our conversations we have had on the phone, it was driving me crazy not to meet you, then when i did meet you my feelings i had just jumped, you are just as adorable in person if not more so then on the phone, the physical aspect is Amazing, you are totally hot, and when we were laying in bed it just felt so RIGHT, then all the drama broke out b/c i was with you, and i felt bad that i caused that and i felt kinda outsided by that, buy yeah anyways i have fallen for you and i really want to make this work, i know its goin to be, NOT hard but take effort, i really dont know how to explain it but nothing can be effortfull if you are truly in it, and i really truly want to be in it, with all my love and time", I am truly thinking that i am goin to move up there this summer, it was a completly different world up there, Brian tells me that i would get in trouble up there and he is probly right, but i know i would stay out of trouble with him by my side. Why would i need to go out and find trouble when i am content stayin at home and talkin to him, i am for real, for instance when we went to the bar we sat up in a section kinda away from everything and talked, for im guessing 2 hours, you know thats usually nothing but we were at the club and there was a bunch of ppl around and lots of things to do, but i just couldn't move away from him, he's like a drug and im addicted to him, its true he left it up to me about what was goin to come of this and i didn't say anything, for the fact that i already knew the answere to it, i Did want to do it and i know what its goin to take, but i didnt say anything i just layed there. I have Fallen for him SO HARD, Things after that kinda went well, but he had to get to work and i needed to get back to BG, my gosh my heart fell out when i said bye, I mean i spent every moment with him for 2 days str8. I became acustumed by it, i could have just dropped school and stayed up there, if i had something to go while he was at work i would have stayed up there till today and just spent all night talkin and holding him..... All you people out there who know me know that i never feel this way. Its a wall that i kept up to keep everyone out, but what can i say he jumped my fence, no pun intended, and he is all up in my world, goodness this just sounds bad, but anywho, I want to make it work and i know that he likes me the same and i get that sick to my stomach, i want to puke feeling when i am around him, NO thats A GOOD THING, But i really don't want to bore anyone but Yeah on that note Later........Alex Robin
Currently Playing
So into You [CD5/Cassette Single]
By Tamia
Im so into you! *Brian*
see related
4:15 PM - add eprops - add comments - email it
Sunday, February 15, 2004
having a blast in L-Ville, I will hit you up when i get back in the BG... Love shout out to all my PPL's In NashVegas..... Later Alex Robin
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Thursday, February 12, 2004
Ok this one is a Personal entry, I'm still not sure Why I started thinking this but here we go: " Will you critisize me as I sit and Cry?"
Silence thickens and soon I start to wonder...... I had, for the lack of a better phrase, a change of mind sunday. After staying up all night then all say with Jenna for reasons of sanity i decided to get some sleep aroundn 3pm. of course with me needing and wanting the sleep , I couldn't. There was a parety in my head, ok it was more like a conference. thinkgs hit me in a new light some good but most bad, well not bad as in tm horrable just as in how my life has takedn this drastic U-turn into myself. I am what i use to make fun of. I just don't know, Brian has me thinking. Plus my Horoscope said learn all you can from someone older, so you don't go thro it. Plus with these feelings i have are getting worse. Am i setting myself up for a CLIFF DIVE. Really Louisville and Nashville. Long Distance... Its not that i don't trust him its the fact that if i don't get to see him at somepoint its goin to kill me. I don't know i havnt even meet him yet. That comes this weekend, But with me in BG and Him in Louisville Thats not to Bad, but what about this summer, who knows if it gets serious I mihgt just move up there damn what has gotten into me im 19 and starting to think about the rest of my life with this person Ive never been in this situation with anyone, well i guess ill find out how this could turn out from this weekend, this past weekend left me regreting some events. yep found myself kissing someone and then i found myself running to the car to get the hell out of there its not that i did anything wronge for the fact that there is nothing b/t us as in a relationship but i still couldn't believe i did it. "How could i do that, im talkin to brian" this smacked me in the Face, WHACK! i just wanted to just call him and tell him, i knew he was up, i txt'd him he was @ a friends house, so he couldn't talk. so i had no one to talk to Jenna was tweaked tollin really lot of help she was so thats why i couldn't think, I did get to talk to him tho, I really waned to tell him how i felt about him but i was reserved for the fact that i didn't wan tto sound as if i was a lunatic but thank god he told me what ihe was thinking and it was the same as what i was thinking,, htat was a big relief.....But still what am i goin to do if we do hit it off and start dateing? Im getting ahead of myself, NO EXPECTATIONS...... I know i have a friend for life but i can see more in it...... I still don't knw me and dana are suppose to get an apartment together but im not goin to go to MTSU next year, so who knows Im planning on attending Western for another year, So if she wants to come up here then that will be fine and work out great. But i do know im not stayin in Nashville this summer, well not at home atleast, I need to get out and live on my own, and by that not with my parents. I want to live my lufe my true life, Boy I don't know how i would tell them if i did move to louisville I thinki i might just say up here, look sere i go again getting ahead of myself, who knows im just tired of living a lie, ive grown used to my drunken weekends and hidden life from most ppl, ive been tellin more and more ppl about my life.... not everything just more about not being as secrative, Most of my friends still love me and i know that will never change, But i really don't know why i have been thinking about this all of a sudden so, on that NOTE im outta here, you can take this as you will,.......
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