Update on life...
So I am 21 now, I have finally reached the last and final "good" birthday... from here on out it's only over the hill cards and those annoying little penguins and shit in my yard... even though I'm pretty sure that my friends are too poor to do something that incredibly stupid and annoying. As of late I honestly feel like I have multiple personality disorder or something. From one day to the next it's a mystery who I'm going to wake up and be. Some days I feel like I'm on top of the world... and then other days... not so much.
First of all I will let you in on a little secret, it's my time of the month... so pretty much anything I say here is a direct product of that fact. I'm starting to wonder... am I really that happy when I'm not on my period? Because seriously up until that one little time of the month I'm happy. Lovin' life! Then all the sudden life is miserable. God women are complicated. I don't know how men put up with this. I can barely put up with this. I saw a comic on tv the other night, it was great because she really fit the mood I was in... hating women. Basically she sat there and bashed women for an hour... and for some odd reason I enjoyed it. Also lately I've been discovering my sexist tendencies. I think I may have been a man in another life, because I really don't know what possessed me to say this. So Stephen needed help with something, well, "personal." I asked him why his girlfriend couldn't help him with that and he responded with, "well it's no my idea of something romantic." And then without a moments hesitation I blurted out, "THAT'S WHAT WOMEN ARE FOR!" I obviously deep down think that women are just slaves to men... I think I need therapy. Seriously, you're probably laughing but I do. Really who am I talking to in this damn journal entry anyway. Now I talk to lj like it's a person. That's probably some "emo" people's disorder that I've now developed. I should probably go do something really emo now.
Moving on, school is nice. I really enjoy microbiology. After nursing I think I will pursue a career in the field. Possibly. Lately I've been back on my forensics kick. I really, really would love to do forensics. It's most likely what I will end up doing... I love it too much and I think that's what's important when it comes to picking a career. Doing something you love. If you call Court Tv, they can tell you I love me some forensics.
In other news... I'm back on my whole wanting to write a novel. (Don't laugh lj) But seriously, I've honestly been working on several ideas but something is wrong. I can't get the right story and the right characters... Once I figure some more information out I'll get back to you guys and let you know how this project is coming. All I can say now is look for my unfinished novel that was found by one of my great great great grandchildren found under a floorboard of some abandoned house that I used to live in and they finish it and become famous. I don't even think that sentence makes sense but there you have it.
Although things are not perfect right now, they are good. I have a lot of good foundations laid out and I am just praying to God that one of them is going to take me somewhere. I know that my life isn't everything I thought it was going to be at this point. But I kind of like it, it's an adventure, a mystery. I look into my future and nothing is certain, and as much as that scares me, it thrills me to know that something unexpected, good or bad, lies ahead of me.
So there it is, my update on life. Really only written for the soul purpose of me venting. I feel better now, more optimistic.
me
First of all I will let you in on a little secret, it's my time of the month... so pretty much anything I say here is a direct product of that fact. I'm starting to wonder... am I really that happy when I'm not on my period? Because seriously up until that one little time of the month I'm happy. Lovin' life! Then all the sudden life is miserable. God women are complicated. I don't know how men put up with this. I can barely put up with this. I saw a comic on tv the other night, it was great because she really fit the mood I was in... hating women. Basically she sat there and bashed women for an hour... and for some odd reason I enjoyed it. Also lately I've been discovering my sexist tendencies. I think I may have been a man in another life, because I really don't know what possessed me to say this. So Stephen needed help with something, well, "personal." I asked him why his girlfriend couldn't help him with that and he responded with, "well it's no my idea of something romantic." And then without a moments hesitation I blurted out, "THAT'S WHAT WOMEN ARE FOR!" I obviously deep down think that women are just slaves to men... I think I need therapy. Seriously, you're probably laughing but I do. Really who am I talking to in this damn journal entry anyway. Now I talk to lj like it's a person. That's probably some "emo" people's disorder that I've now developed. I should probably go do something really emo now.
Moving on, school is nice. I really enjoy microbiology. After nursing I think I will pursue a career in the field. Possibly. Lately I've been back on my forensics kick. I really, really would love to do forensics. It's most likely what I will end up doing... I love it too much and I think that's what's important when it comes to picking a career. Doing something you love. If you call Court Tv, they can tell you I love me some forensics.
In other news... I'm back on my whole wanting to write a novel. (Don't laugh lj) But seriously, I've honestly been working on several ideas but something is wrong. I can't get the right story and the right characters... Once I figure some more information out I'll get back to you guys and let you know how this project is coming. All I can say now is look for my unfinished novel that was found by one of my great great great grandchildren found under a floorboard of some abandoned house that I used to live in and they finish it and become famous. I don't even think that sentence makes sense but there you have it.
Although things are not perfect right now, they are good. I have a lot of good foundations laid out and I am just praying to God that one of them is going to take me somewhere. I know that my life isn't everything I thought it was going to be at this point. But I kind of like it, it's an adventure, a mystery. I look into my future and nothing is certain, and as much as that scares me, it thrills me to know that something unexpected, good or bad, lies ahead of me.
So there it is, my update on life. Really only written for the soul purpose of me venting. I feel better now, more optimistic.
me