Reality vs. Fantasy
I was going to post this on Two Worlds Collide but I decided against it since it didn't really fit into any section, as much as the similarities creep me out.
You know how in stories people talk about reality "slamming the character like a Mack truck" - that is honestly what I feel like right now.
Two weeks ago, Rookie Blue "lost" one of their characters when he was stabbed and bled out. Did this sadden me, yeah. Did I cry? Kinda. I got a little teary eyed and probably exaggerated and said that I cried but in reality, I don't think that it was crying like some fans did. The characters, THEY ARE NOT REAL!!!
Tonight, I almost started crying. One of my friends lost her fiance in an accident. She has always been so happy when she talks about him. I'm pretty sure they were waiting for her to graduate before getting married - and we just started our senior year.
Death is not a foreign concept for me. Unfortunately, I lost someone important to me earlier this year. I remember that I didn't get how people could say "I feel your pain". Their situation was so different than my situation and it made me angry to hear that.
Reality hit like a ton of bricks. To my friend, I feel like I can say "on some level I feel your pain". For the last two weeks, I've spent a good chunk of time in Traci's head as I wrote my "tribute" to Jerry. I spent a lot of time thinking about loss and the pain of losing something that means everything to you (wow, I just realized how depressing my life is - this was my escape from reality). It was going into Traci's mind that caused me to shed a few real tears - I run the stories through my head as one of the characters. I have spent time as that woman with the engagement ring, feeling like the world is in your hands, that nothing can go wrong. Only to have reality slam into you and tell you that it is not meant to be.
My playlist is going and Celine Dion's 'My Heart Will Go On' just started. I had to swallow hard - but I know that my friend will push on. She's in shock right now - who wouldn't be. One minute he is fine, heading off for another day of work, the next minute he's gone - did she even get to say goodbye or did he decide not to wake her before he left since it was early? It's that 'last conversation' not knowing that you're 'out of time' - but we can't live our lives like that.
My friend is going to get over the shock and go through the stages of grief and my only hope is that I can be there if she needs any support.
Reality is that my friend just lost the most important person in her life - he's not coming back. If I want to see "Jerry" again, I can either watch an earlier episode or watch one of the other shows with Noam. My friend, she doesn't get that option.
Sorry if anyone thought this was a story but I just had to get this out.
Catch you on the flip side
~Cyth
You know how in stories people talk about reality "slamming the character like a Mack truck" - that is honestly what I feel like right now.
Two weeks ago, Rookie Blue "lost" one of their characters when he was stabbed and bled out. Did this sadden me, yeah. Did I cry? Kinda. I got a little teary eyed and probably exaggerated and said that I cried but in reality, I don't think that it was crying like some fans did. The characters, THEY ARE NOT REAL!!!
Tonight, I almost started crying. One of my friends lost her fiance in an accident. She has always been so happy when she talks about him. I'm pretty sure they were waiting for her to graduate before getting married - and we just started our senior year.
Death is not a foreign concept for me. Unfortunately, I lost someone important to me earlier this year. I remember that I didn't get how people could say "I feel your pain". Their situation was so different than my situation and it made me angry to hear that.
Reality hit like a ton of bricks. To my friend, I feel like I can say "on some level I feel your pain". For the last two weeks, I've spent a good chunk of time in Traci's head as I wrote my "tribute" to Jerry. I spent a lot of time thinking about loss and the pain of losing something that means everything to you (wow, I just realized how depressing my life is - this was my escape from reality). It was going into Traci's mind that caused me to shed a few real tears - I run the stories through my head as one of the characters. I have spent time as that woman with the engagement ring, feeling like the world is in your hands, that nothing can go wrong. Only to have reality slam into you and tell you that it is not meant to be.
My playlist is going and Celine Dion's 'My Heart Will Go On' just started. I had to swallow hard - but I know that my friend will push on. She's in shock right now - who wouldn't be. One minute he is fine, heading off for another day of work, the next minute he's gone - did she even get to say goodbye or did he decide not to wake her before he left since it was early? It's that 'last conversation' not knowing that you're 'out of time' - but we can't live our lives like that.
My friend is going to get over the shock and go through the stages of grief and my only hope is that I can be there if she needs any support.
Reality is that my friend just lost the most important person in her life - he's not coming back. If I want to see "Jerry" again, I can either watch an earlier episode or watch one of the other shows with Noam. My friend, she doesn't get that option.
Sorry if anyone thought this was a story but I just had to get this out.
Catch you on the flip side
~Cyth