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i asked for craziness... i definitely got craziness... things have been insanely busy lately.
so facebook has turned out to be one of the best and worst distractions ever. i found chris' profile and his profile picture was a self picture of him (topless, of course) with a girl whose face was pressed up against his.
well that threw me off. melissa added him as a friend and of course, i ended up reading some of the entries on his wall.
i thought i had really and truly put this behind me. i honestly believed that i had. but when i saw that profile picture and read some of the things i read, i literally felt like i wanted to throw up.
something that i am very good at is suppressing my emotions. pushing them deep down and ignoring them. i am very 'mind-over-matter'. and if i don't want to feel a certain way, i tell myself that i don't feel that way and eventually i start to believe it.
the only downside to this approach to handling my emotions is that all of those emotions are technically still there. and i never know what small (or big) thing it will take to bring them hurling back up to the surface.
i need to face this head on and settle everything once and for all.
i think i need closure.
have i said this before? sometimes i feel like such a broken record.
other than that... life is good right now.
on tuesday i met the mentors in my group and the exchange students we'll be mentoring this semester. they're a wicked group of people and i can't wait to start planning activities and events.
thursday night = 90s night at barrymore's so anne, nat, and i went. i absolutely love 90s night. i never ever have a bad time there...
last night was an absolutely BLAST. i can't even remember the last time i had so much fun. it is so so awesome to work with such fun people. my boss got us totally and completely wasted, buying rounds and rounds (and rounds!) of drinks... i love working with such a small team where everyone is so young and gets along like peers, rather than strictly 'boss-employee-coop student'.
tonight is the Managers Without Borders boat cruise and it's going to be crazy. i made the exec. team and am so excited to be working with all these new people promoting this club and planning exciting events.
i also haven't been paid in over a month and am so effing mad at the government for being so completely incompetent when it comes to their HR department.
i'm starving and have no more groceries because i have no more money... canned corn and rice again for dinner... please oh please government of canada, frickin pay me on monday!!!
so facebook has turned out to be one of the best and worst distractions ever. i found chris' profile and his profile picture was a self picture of him (topless, of course) with a girl whose face was pressed up against his.
well that threw me off. melissa added him as a friend and of course, i ended up reading some of the entries on his wall.
i thought i had really and truly put this behind me. i honestly believed that i had. but when i saw that profile picture and read some of the things i read, i literally felt like i wanted to throw up.
something that i am very good at is suppressing my emotions. pushing them deep down and ignoring them. i am very 'mind-over-matter'. and if i don't want to feel a certain way, i tell myself that i don't feel that way and eventually i start to believe it.
the only downside to this approach to handling my emotions is that all of those emotions are technically still there. and i never know what small (or big) thing it will take to bring them hurling back up to the surface.
i need to face this head on and settle everything once and for all.
i think i need closure.
have i said this before? sometimes i feel like such a broken record.
other than that... life is good right now.
on tuesday i met the mentors in my group and the exchange students we'll be mentoring this semester. they're a wicked group of people and i can't wait to start planning activities and events.
thursday night = 90s night at barrymore's so anne, nat, and i went. i absolutely love 90s night. i never ever have a bad time there...
last night was an absolutely BLAST. i can't even remember the last time i had so much fun. it is so so awesome to work with such fun people. my boss got us totally and completely wasted, buying rounds and rounds (and rounds!) of drinks... i love working with such a small team where everyone is so young and gets along like peers, rather than strictly 'boss-employee-coop student'.
tonight is the Managers Without Borders boat cruise and it's going to be crazy. i made the exec. team and am so excited to be working with all these new people promoting this club and planning exciting events.
i also haven't been paid in over a month and am so effing mad at the government for being so completely incompetent when it comes to their HR department.
i'm starving and have no more groceries because i have no more money... canned corn and rice again for dinner... please oh please government of canada, frickin pay me on monday!!!