good and reckless and true...
things are good. for a change...they're good.
i've been good at releasing lately. and accepting. and not caring. which makes things good.
i went back to the gym today after a short holiday hiatus. it felt good. in fact, if i didn't have 101 things to do at home, i might have done the circuit twice. yeah...it was that good. definitely bringing the ipod tomorrow so i can jump on the bike for at least 10 minutes after my circuit. the hiatus was enough. time to get back to bidness.
according to the scale at the gym, if i lose 6 more pounds by saturday, it'll be exactly 100 in 6 months since surgery. it's already 111 since the beginning of march. but i'd love to get to 100 on my 6 month anniversary. just a silly little goal i've set.
i cooked tonight! like actual recipes from an actual book! i made no dough spinach pie (SOOO GOOD!) and this mediterranean eggplant thing (not as good as i had hoped, but tolerable). i have no idea why i made two dishes. i'm literally going to have meals for two weeks with all of this food. i don't think sometimes. i just...don't think.
i've more or less decided not to start grad classes this term. i've been crazy overwhelmed with school and wanting time for the gym and for actually cooking food (as opposed to oatmeal and veggie burgers). i also want to spend time working on the musical this season and i'd love to have my weekends free (now that i'm actually developing a social life). and we won't even get into the money issue. good lord! so i had a brief, yet effective, heart to heart with andy who validated my decision to postpone my "illuminati" (as calder put it)...as long as i promised him that i was actually postponing and not cancelling my enrollment in administrative courses. very sweet. and of course, i promised. i DO plan on going back. for some reason, the time just doesn't seem right right now.
i got a very unexpected email from my pal chip (from the AR) today. it was nice. made me smile. love how simple things make me smile these days...
...like how i'm looking foward to wearing my white cable knit sweater and my jeans to school on friday. or how i'm excited about going to the wrestling match on saturday morning. or how i'm pretty damn smiley about crawling under my covers in a few minutes, cuddlin' up, and calling it a day...me in my bright blue plaid pajama pants and totally unmatching brown matt nathanson tshirt (which looks so hot with my sloppy pony and pearl earrings. sizzlin'!).
i can't get over how much i've changed. i'm so much simpler now. i love it.
i've been good at releasing lately. and accepting. and not caring. which makes things good.
i went back to the gym today after a short holiday hiatus. it felt good. in fact, if i didn't have 101 things to do at home, i might have done the circuit twice. yeah...it was that good. definitely bringing the ipod tomorrow so i can jump on the bike for at least 10 minutes after my circuit. the hiatus was enough. time to get back to bidness.
according to the scale at the gym, if i lose 6 more pounds by saturday, it'll be exactly 100 in 6 months since surgery. it's already 111 since the beginning of march. but i'd love to get to 100 on my 6 month anniversary. just a silly little goal i've set.
i cooked tonight! like actual recipes from an actual book! i made no dough spinach pie (SOOO GOOD!) and this mediterranean eggplant thing (not as good as i had hoped, but tolerable). i have no idea why i made two dishes. i'm literally going to have meals for two weeks with all of this food. i don't think sometimes. i just...don't think.
i've more or less decided not to start grad classes this term. i've been crazy overwhelmed with school and wanting time for the gym and for actually cooking food (as opposed to oatmeal and veggie burgers). i also want to spend time working on the musical this season and i'd love to have my weekends free (now that i'm actually developing a social life). and we won't even get into the money issue. good lord! so i had a brief, yet effective, heart to heart with andy who validated my decision to postpone my "illuminati" (as calder put it)...as long as i promised him that i was actually postponing and not cancelling my enrollment in administrative courses. very sweet. and of course, i promised. i DO plan on going back. for some reason, the time just doesn't seem right right now.
i got a very unexpected email from my pal chip (from the AR) today. it was nice. made me smile. love how simple things make me smile these days...
...like how i'm looking foward to wearing my white cable knit sweater and my jeans to school on friday. or how i'm excited about going to the wrestling match on saturday morning. or how i'm pretty damn smiley about crawling under my covers in a few minutes, cuddlin' up, and calling it a day...me in my bright blue plaid pajama pants and totally unmatching brown matt nathanson tshirt (which looks so hot with my sloppy pony and pearl earrings. sizzlin'!).
i can't get over how much i've changed. i'm so much simpler now. i love it.