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im in a slightly better mood today. i got SOME things cleared up with nolan. as for the other, he claims he doesnt know. i guess, whatever. if its the truth. i started my period today. im not really very happy about that. but oh well. its better than not having it for 2 freaking months and thinking im pregnant. but the depo shot is really not that great. i mean, it would be wonderful, under different circumstances. if you want to raise your sex drive, run right out to your local birth control center and get it. but if not, and you couldnt really care less about sex, you should probably not get it. or if your significant other isnt all that into having sex everyday or even every other day, then you should really reconsider. anyway, yeah. ive been having these insane, off the wall dreams the past few days. about nolan having a baby. with a different girl. and i didnt get upset. i have no clue what was up with that. i just didnt really say anything. but i could feel that i was depressed, i just held it all in. maybe its a sign that i really need to confront him on a more regular basis. but not in a bad "confrontational" manner. but like a level-headed "im concerned about our relationship"manner.make sense? i think so. i tried it last night. and i only got a lil teary-eyed. not bad. really. it could have been a full-fledged sob-fest again. which only gets me into an even bigger problem with him. so im doing well. im going to prove to him that we dont fight all the time. he said if in 2 months time we havent had a fight he'd believe me. so im on a mission. hopefully all is well. anyway, now i must go get lunch then head to work for a fun-filled evening. yeah, right.