4:30am
Despite the fact that I was in bed at 11pm, I've now been up for over an hour feeling anxious, tossing, turning and worrying. Over what? Everything, nothing and all points in between.
I thought writing about it and getting some of it out of my head might help but I'm finding even that is too much. Maybe because I sit down with the computer and remember all of the millions of things that need caught up on, including dozens of unanswered emails. Too much, too much. I'm behind in --everything-- and hate this feeling that I'm never going to catch up and just have time to BE.
I bitch and moan too much. I want to let it all go but don't quite know how to actually do that.
I thought writing about it and getting some of it out of my head might help but I'm finding even that is too much. Maybe because I sit down with the computer and remember all of the millions of things that need caught up on, including dozens of unanswered emails. Too much, too much. I'm behind in --everything-- and hate this feeling that I'm never going to catch up and just have time to BE.
I bitch and moan too much. I want to let it all go but don't quite know how to actually do that.