seeing
its sad to think of what i have let myself and those around me become....
i watch the hints of life slip by, so anonimously, ignoring completely the most obvious truths..
maybe its just the hatred of drama, or fear of happiness.
im not even entirely shure anymore of what i want, what i need, or what ive got....
needing voilence, needing expression, something real, something painful, heartfelt and inteanse...
i find it sad that the past is the only thing that can truely hold my emotional fascination, maybe thats a hint...
i dont even know what to long for anymore.....
damn contentment, or settling, not even content, thats the worst part, how am i supposed to cope with this confusion?
(if anyone knows the answer please contact me with it)
i watch the hints of life slip by, so anonimously, ignoring completely the most obvious truths..
maybe its just the hatred of drama, or fear of happiness.
im not even entirely shure anymore of what i want, what i need, or what ive got....
needing voilence, needing expression, something real, something painful, heartfelt and inteanse...
i find it sad that the past is the only thing that can truely hold my emotional fascination, maybe thats a hint...
i dont even know what to long for anymore.....
damn contentment, or settling, not even content, thats the worst part, how am i supposed to cope with this confusion?
(if anyone knows the answer please contact me with it)