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I had my first day of work at the post office today. Whoo go me!! It was alright. A lot better than I thought it was going to be anyway. I didn't realise how complicated some of it is to do and how many forms you have to fill out.
I initiated things with Kevin again. Even after everything that he said and did to me, I still went back. I am sober and I am still going ahead with it. It is like I am addicted to the attention that he gives me. I still feel the emptiness after I finish talking to him. We aren't going out. We are friends, with benefits. I will let him do anything that he wants to me, I will do anything for him, just becuase I'm that kind of person. I want to be pushed around by him. He is too weak, cares too much about me, maybe that is what attracted me again after everything that he did. I saw a mean side that I hadn't seen before and I felt turned on by that.
I got my formal photos on Friday, so I may post them on here. Might.
I can't think of anything else to write so I'm going ta go.
I initiated things with Kevin again. Even after everything that he said and did to me, I still went back. I am sober and I am still going ahead with it. It is like I am addicted to the attention that he gives me. I still feel the emptiness after I finish talking to him. We aren't going out. We are friends, with benefits. I will let him do anything that he wants to me, I will do anything for him, just becuase I'm that kind of person. I want to be pushed around by him. He is too weak, cares too much about me, maybe that is what attracted me again after everything that he did. I saw a mean side that I hadn't seen before and I felt turned on by that.
I got my formal photos on Friday, so I may post them on here. Might.
I can't think of anything else to write so I'm going ta go.