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[razor_scarred]

i have thoughts that i should not
i have feelings for those i shouldnt
i cry for things not in my control
i am haunted by the lives i dont live
but wish too
i am burdened by my own soul
i feel i trespass my own home
i wish health to my enemys
i wish wealth to my foes
i try to hard for those i cannot save
and try harder after ive failed
i lie to see you smile
i lie to save you pain
i hide in a shadow as you pass by
crying silently so you dont hear