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01. Whats your name? Melissa
02. Age, Birthday, and Local? 23, Aug 2, Florida
03. Form of SI?:cutting
04. Why do you SI?: I don't know what else to do...
05. When was your first time, if you remember? What did you use? oh man I don't remember...
06. Where do you most often SI? arms
07. What do you use? razor blades
08. Do you hide it? yes
09. Do you listen to music while you SI? sometimes
10. Anyone know? Want them to? my husband, my best friend, my therapist, and a few co-workers
11. Eating Disorders? over eating
12. Mental Disorders? Borderline Personality Disorder
13. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend? I don't know...
14. Thank you for filling this out :) sure
So I have to be perfectly honest... if this offends you it shouldn't but most people who cut are little girls.. teenagers... I am not saying that its not real and that they aren't in pain but its proportional to what difficulties a 15 year old can have... you have to understand i'm 23 years old. I am married, I have a job at a hospital... I have been doing this for over 10 years now... most people grow out of it or learn to cope but not me... quite the opposite... it's getting worse. Last year I was diagnosed with borderline personality... it was a blessing and a curse... i realized that there is a name for what i have... I do a lot more than cutting believe me. I eat until i am sick, i have sex with strangers, i spend all my husbands and my money, we have been evicted from 3 apartments, i have ruined our credit, i stabbed him once, i have him the black eye of a lifetime,... if you look mostly all of these are symptoms of BPD... i don't have a few symptoms... i am the poster child for it... but now i can't tell if i use it as a crutch...I made this new journal tonight specifically to talk about my SI and BPD... feel free to add me if you like...
anyways thing got really bad last week... just though it would share some pics.
02. Age, Birthday, and Local? 23, Aug 2, Florida
03. Form of SI?:cutting
04. Why do you SI?: I don't know what else to do...
05. When was your first time, if you remember? What did you use? oh man I don't remember...
06. Where do you most often SI? arms
07. What do you use? razor blades
08. Do you hide it? yes
09. Do you listen to music while you SI? sometimes
10. Anyone know? Want them to? my husband, my best friend, my therapist, and a few co-workers
11. Eating Disorders? over eating
12. Mental Disorders? Borderline Personality Disorder
13. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend? I don't know...
14. Thank you for filling this out :) sure
So I have to be perfectly honest... if this offends you it shouldn't but most people who cut are little girls.. teenagers... I am not saying that its not real and that they aren't in pain but its proportional to what difficulties a 15 year old can have... you have to understand i'm 23 years old. I am married, I have a job at a hospital... I have been doing this for over 10 years now... most people grow out of it or learn to cope but not me... quite the opposite... it's getting worse. Last year I was diagnosed with borderline personality... it was a blessing and a curse... i realized that there is a name for what i have... I do a lot more than cutting believe me. I eat until i am sick, i have sex with strangers, i spend all my husbands and my money, we have been evicted from 3 apartments, i have ruined our credit, i stabbed him once, i have him the black eye of a lifetime,... if you look mostly all of these are symptoms of BPD... i don't have a few symptoms... i am the poster child for it... but now i can't tell if i use it as a crutch...I made this new journal tonight specifically to talk about my SI and BPD... feel free to add me if you like...
anyways thing got really bad last week... just though it would share some pics.
