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I've begun a new journal. I want to leave this darkness behind. I think I've been in the dumps for enough years of my life that i'm sick of feeling hurt/pain/ uncomfortableness. I want to build my life up and not destroy it. I've loved this journal for the past five + years but I think it's become an enabler. It's allowed me to dwell on the bad more then I needed to. My life is great. I am alive, living on my own, attending college, able to express myself freely. I have an amazing family and even more wondering best friend. I've been lucky to have a boyfriend that does love me and more then that I have been lucky for someone to stick with me. I may not see the good me always but others do. I am leaving behind a life I'm so used to. one that dwells on pain. I've had enough of it though. I'm ready to live life. Fuck being sad. It lasts for so long. I have a roof over my head and can pay my bills. there are too many people who have done everything to succeed in life and yet they still lose a job, can't afford school, or aren't able to be there true self. Today ends an everlasting chapter of my life. I am what I make of myself. && from now on i will make the best of myself..