A dilemma

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As I was driving from point C back to point A today, I realized a minor dilemma that I will be in in January when I'm back in Illinois briefly. My church is undergoing some serious conflict, to the point where the pastor has put his name up for call elsewhere in the church, because it's becoming apparent that he can't take our church to the next level, due to the resistance he is getting. In fact, the congregation is weakening because of it. People have asked me in the past when visiting my home congregation, when I was going to "come back and save us". This question has made me uncomfortable and I repeatedly have reminded individuals in my home congregation that there is no way I would be able to come back and be their pastor. When I'm back on vacation in January, I have the feeling that somebody will ask the question again. I really don't want to be asked that question, and I don't want to be seen as some savior type figure or hero son of the church. I'm really wondering whether I should attend a service at my home congregation at all.

My anxiety level is far too high for this kind of thing, and it's quite possible that it would be a perfectly fine service and nobody would bug me at all. I just don't want to be a distraction for these wonderful people when they need to focus on healing. I don't want to be in an awkward situation, but I'm afraid that if I don't go and people know that I'm back in town, they'll be hurt that I didn't stop by to say "hi" and some might interpret it as a sign that I don't support the pastor either. Am I overthinking this? Any suggestions?