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i jsut want something that makes all the pain and all the shti go away, dissapear, i jsut want the fucking shit to end. i'm sick of fucking fake people, who can't make up their fucking mind. they jsut use u for their use then dispose of u when there no longer in need. u there their there to help u out, and say they'll be there for u, but they won't it's all a load of shit. are their any decent peopel out there??? i mean everyoen, beeaks plans, has other better friends, more important shit to do, or jsut don't wanna c ya, sometimes im' sick and tired of being non worthy of ne thing. i wish there was liek a different place frome here, a total different universe where theres no fuck heads liek there are here. where theres no fake assholes that only use peopel for their ammusement. ha if that were only possible. maybe i'll wake up tomorrow and it won't be in this body of pain surrounded be matterless people. no one cares, not enough ne ways. so i'm gonna sit here blankly feeling sorry for myself. but right now i dont' ever care, i feel liek i'm at 0. just liek fuck it. what do you wake up for each day. another day full of shit, everyone's got their own fucking agenda, but i'm left here, sitting alone crying.
i took josh to michales to try and get him a discount didnt work, came to almost 100 bucks, and he didnt' even get it all. and i really dont' wanan fuck up his relaitonship, cuz if he really does love her, then i shouldnt' mess with that, even tho shes' morman, and soudns liek her fam has fucked up rules, i guess he sees past that.
i feel liek taking a fucking bullet and shooting it into my skull