Life or something like it...
I am only really writing this for myself so if you are reading this you might not understand anything that i am trying to say. However if you do read this and make any sense out of what i am trying to tell myself please clue me in. I am really trying to find the real candace; who or what i am to this world. What does this world need from me and what do I need from the world. I need to wake up and tell myself I am the only one that matters to me and I need to do something about it. I need to know who I am before anyone else tries to tell me who i might be. I am so sick of always trying to surround myself with persons to keep me occupied. I need to stop hurting the people that matter the most to me. I need to learn that it doesn't matter what people think of me and that if they really care about me they will be there for me no matter what. You know I really haven't known people like that till just recently. I just let them pass me by becuase i guess i didn't want to face the real world. Its a very scary place; where everyone is in it for themselves, but i guess that isn;t so bad. That makes them stronger, they are the ones with the real lives, the ones with the real friends. So i now find myself wondering who the real candace will be and i am scared. I will now listen to myself and not the voices outside. (no i am not crazy and if you really know me you know who i am talking about)So who will i be? A Prep, A Freak, A Thug, A Skater, A Punk, A Bitch, A Nerd, A Loser, or Just Normal. But what is normal? do you really think the world could be a place without our "Labels" I really don't think so. Think about it even your closest friends have "labels" It makes me sick. So will i be forced once again to choose a "label" I will try my hardest not to but no matter what i will have one to someone. So hello world once again here i am candace but give me a chance first before you say anything about me cause you know what... I don't even know who I am yet but just as soon as i find out you will be the first one i tell. But until then please don't ignore me completely. I just want to be loved for being me and not something i pretend to be... (to be continued)