Are you sure?
I cant quite place it but things are come in and out of reality. To elaborate I look at my hands I don’t see the connection between than and myself. Do I control my body but my body not control me? (like a diode controlling a one way flow).
I can’t deal with people I can barely understand what they are saying when they speak no one really makes sense. To be fair though I don’t really pay attention any more when people speak, life is dull possibly because I’ve been distancing myself from it. Everything can be broken down to a mechanical process that you can follow and not care for the consequences as long as you don’t realize what’s happening. It’s amazing what you can do, shrug off pain close yourself off to others and become numb to all feeling. What do you have to do to reach this? Come to the conclusion that death is a better alternative than the life that you live. After that, well nothing really seems important anymore and you can just go about with the care-free feeling that death is the worst thing that can happen and the best possibility. It is important to realize this applies to your self and not others, they may care.
But with this I have come to a conclusion that my numbness, for lack of better term, is more mental than physical. To describe it, I forget that that’s pain depending on how bad, most thing just on the surface (skin layer) don’t bother me too much.
I can’t deal with people I can barely understand what they are saying when they speak no one really makes sense. To be fair though I don’t really pay attention any more when people speak, life is dull possibly because I’ve been distancing myself from it. Everything can be broken down to a mechanical process that you can follow and not care for the consequences as long as you don’t realize what’s happening. It’s amazing what you can do, shrug off pain close yourself off to others and become numb to all feeling. What do you have to do to reach this? Come to the conclusion that death is a better alternative than the life that you live. After that, well nothing really seems important anymore and you can just go about with the care-free feeling that death is the worst thing that can happen and the best possibility. It is important to realize this applies to your self and not others, they may care.
But with this I have come to a conclusion that my numbness, for lack of better term, is more mental than physical. To describe it, I forget that that’s pain depending on how bad, most thing just on the surface (skin layer) don’t bother me too much.