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wow thatt last one was really really long and i sound so deperate. im not much better todaybut at leats im not freaking out so much...... but i think that if there is anything gone wrong then its my fault. im so pessimistic, and i think i am imagining it. ive got to perk up my mood cause i think im depressing everyone around me . that is not good cause im usualy the person who perks everyone else up. jeseus i wish it was the weekend. i wish i had some sun chips and mabe some pina coladas. and that it was raining. and Dylan was here or i was with him. or that he would call me. that he liked me again. like he used to. like during swimming he talked to me then and called me and held me and shiiiitttttttt!!!!! mabe hes sick of me i bet i get old after awile... someone had better give me advice before i do something regretable and stupid.....hummmm i think im gonna roller blade off the roof, hey or hit my head into the wall repedly, so bye bye nonexistant friends. love you chicas ciao ciao