oh sweet valentines....
Well happy valentines babe. I miss u lots wish u were here so bad I wanna kiss you and look at you and lay in your arms and hear you breath and it has to be you no one else will do I need your smile to complete me. How did we end up soooo far apart? I need you right here… cause you’re the black and white and I’m the color but color is overwhelming on its own I need the black and white to define me… omg so ya it’s valentines and I’ve really been missing you it hurts right now I feel lonely without you but I’m toughin it out. Jk I’m not even taking birth control anymore cause I figure why bother? Im not having any sex anyway. I love my strawberry cherry neon hair I wanna send a picture you’d love it it’s a gorgeous mess of colors, I’ve got to tell u the truth I’m no better off than you I’m curled up in my chair with a bottle of robo and three grams of weed stoned off my gourd drinking lemonade and eating wafer crackers… I dunno whatever… it’s crazy… miss u sooo ….but I’m feeling like me again I’m all creative and curious again… it’s very good…nice that it’s warming up now sping and all that I hear it rains here a good deal I guess we’ll see. I like writing letters I have some poems too I wonder if any of them are any good… did u see what dreams may come? I love that movie. Goin through hell for the one u love its literal sometimes I’d do it I love you and this is hellish being apart and I miss you and need you… I fantasise about when I get to see you again… cant believe it’s valentines and I’m sitting here so all alone. Dark days. Dark, stoned, interesting days where I hope I’m finding me again and getting that solid before I go adventuring in the world… you’re still coming with right? I wanna travel with you it would be soo cool even if were camping in a car I love you so deeply how is everythin? I hope god’s helpers are doing just that in the addiction frontlines…. I want to write you so bad for real but I don’t think they’d like my letters, especially if they come pouring in too early its so gay that they don’t let you get letters from “girlfriends or significant others” so lame its horrid… I miss u bubba. I write when I cant sleep…. I’m eating chocolate dipped peanut brittle and listening to disco funk. Wish that when I press save and close my computer I would roll over and just there you’d be sleepy and warm and smelling all good. I wanna give u a head massage and a slew of hickeys, I wanna hug and kiss and cuddle hope I’m not tormenting you with imagery. I hope I’m not sin. I hope I didn’t ever influence u badly I don’t think I did but hey just let me kno if I was. Honesty trust openness flavor intimacy special awsemo duo. Hey my nicknames red and u’r last name is reed so its like the same but minus one e. I don’t mind the sound of those letters with my other name letters.. jk lol I’m not bein scary I hope, I just hope to be with you for a great long while if that’s ok and well one thinks of futures. I dunno anyway I was thinking of what you’ll look like when I see you again… I hope I’m not too crazy, I hope u fill out a lil and snuggle me in bearhugs like when we first met and you lived at pookies. Oh I miss those days those beautiful springtime days. In the basement. your red beard tickling my face, Giggling and smoking Marlboro lights. U taught me to smoke weed. I used to fret so much over my makeup and clothes when I used to come over to visit… I love getting pretty for you I always have and if I impress u and no one else my job is done… I want to shine for you I wanna be cool to impress u and I think ur gonna blow everyone away after all this rehab business… ohhhhh baby love you and im here to stay if u want me… tell me how lifes goin I wanna keep up….