this is so tedious
you kno whats despicable? when i fall into one of these moods. im totaly out of it i cant concentrate, im missing details, im semi- violent, im not hungery i can barely move im so tired, my head hurts, im kinda quiet and its just so i dunno blarg (blah or eh in some languages)and the most agravating part is that i cant pinpoint the cause which just makes it worse. but then again everything makes it worse i just cant seem to shake this numbing hold on the inside of my head. i mean i didnt want to log onto the computer today thats how wierd ive gotten, i just did stuff all day like a drone and i dunno i just think im missing something or overlooking something realy important and i cant name it.......aaarrrgggghhhh! and my head! its so wierd its just this feeling like where the only way to describe it is to say like theres this mass compacting my brain into the space labled center and its like some sort of threshold as in like i dunno it doesnt realy hurt but i cantell that if anything changes in there im gonna be insome serious agony. and on top ive got allergies, whoopiee......and i never did get ahold of dylan and my moms bien all pissy and anti-anna and stuff and i guess im lonely, i need someone t hug right now and everyone is elsewhere, illumination: chealsea's in italy, jessanne's in pennsylvania, cera's in kansas, rachel's in like denver or something, tawnee's in california, dylan must be in a bomb shelter somewhere, and katie, whos realy good for a hug is either in carbondale or on a sumer trip of her own. so basicaly my hug platoon has been deployed to the greater world and i came back too early, so well fuck im just so oh i dont kno on like auto pilot or whatever......it sucks........and im bored, oh and if i have to plant another geranium or pull another weed ill totaly fall of the shelf, i think mabe i just need some rest and like a good bottle of rum.......
~anna~
~anna~