Before I falll into the abyss,
I figured I should update.
Soooo busy. I haven't been this busy since the concerto competition time. Things are gradually ending in some areas but then too many other things pop up that multiply the business level by 8. I found almost no time to study for the PRAXIS II exams, which are taking place today. I took the music content one already, and I should have studied at least a little bit. I can't believe how much I forgot in so little time. I can't say I did bad, but I could have definitely done better. I take the Fundamental Studies exam in like an hour and a half. That's all of the subjects. Whee.
Then Rich's recital. As much as the music for it is great and everything, I'll be really glad when it's over becuse I'll get 4 hours of my week back from rehearsing, I'll get paid for it, and I won't have to practice that material anymore. Then I can get on to starting my technique practice for my level test to make up for the one I failed last semester. Yes, starting, something I should have been working on all semester. Oh and that audition I have for my Chopin concerto in a few weeks with CCSO? Yeah, haven't touched it. That will be really interesting. If it happens.
It's not that I'm prioritizing things wrong, it's just that I'm forced to take things one day, one hour at a time, and sometimes that's overwhelming. It's impossible to plan ahead. I despise that.
I want more than anything to finish the book I started, to get back to my writing which hasn't been touched since last semester, to maybe enjoy the last few days with Mike before I don't see him for 3 months. Yeah, there's no visits this summer either... I'm trying not to think about it.
I'll probably spend much of the summer in solitude, doing a lot of the things that I have meant to do over the last few months. I want to write again, write a lot. I want to compose a piano solo for my recital, I have to practice and memorize a Mozart sonata and my other concerto and tweak everything else. It's a lot of work. I also have to figure out what to do about grad school or teaching and where to live after graduation. I'm still kind of frightened about that. I'll also be going to doggie school classes with Bandit (who's being a really bad puppy lately), and possibly attending ballroom dancing classes, I'm working on that. I'll be hopefully getting trained as a server at the restaurant ASAP and I'll also hopefully be subbing for West Seneca until the end of the school year and accompanying the choral stuff at Winchester Elem.
It'll be busy, just the way I like it, but with enough time for me. I need to recoup so bad. I hate not having time for homework and important stuff, when I should be relaxing! Sigh. I know I'm whining, and I understand no one wants to read it, but I'm that homesick, and that exhausted. I need to go home.
Soooo busy. I haven't been this busy since the concerto competition time. Things are gradually ending in some areas but then too many other things pop up that multiply the business level by 8. I found almost no time to study for the PRAXIS II exams, which are taking place today. I took the music content one already, and I should have studied at least a little bit. I can't believe how much I forgot in so little time. I can't say I did bad, but I could have definitely done better. I take the Fundamental Studies exam in like an hour and a half. That's all of the subjects. Whee.
Then Rich's recital. As much as the music for it is great and everything, I'll be really glad when it's over becuse I'll get 4 hours of my week back from rehearsing, I'll get paid for it, and I won't have to practice that material anymore. Then I can get on to starting my technique practice for my level test to make up for the one I failed last semester. Yes, starting, something I should have been working on all semester. Oh and that audition I have for my Chopin concerto in a few weeks with CCSO? Yeah, haven't touched it. That will be really interesting. If it happens.
It's not that I'm prioritizing things wrong, it's just that I'm forced to take things one day, one hour at a time, and sometimes that's overwhelming. It's impossible to plan ahead. I despise that.
I want more than anything to finish the book I started, to get back to my writing which hasn't been touched since last semester, to maybe enjoy the last few days with Mike before I don't see him for 3 months. Yeah, there's no visits this summer either... I'm trying not to think about it.
I'll probably spend much of the summer in solitude, doing a lot of the things that I have meant to do over the last few months. I want to write again, write a lot. I want to compose a piano solo for my recital, I have to practice and memorize a Mozart sonata and my other concerto and tweak everything else. It's a lot of work. I also have to figure out what to do about grad school or teaching and where to live after graduation. I'm still kind of frightened about that. I'll also be going to doggie school classes with Bandit (who's being a really bad puppy lately), and possibly attending ballroom dancing classes, I'm working on that. I'll be hopefully getting trained as a server at the restaurant ASAP and I'll also hopefully be subbing for West Seneca until the end of the school year and accompanying the choral stuff at Winchester Elem.
It'll be busy, just the way I like it, but with enough time for me. I need to recoup so bad. I hate not having time for homework and important stuff, when I should be relaxing! Sigh. I know I'm whining, and I understand no one wants to read it, but I'm that homesick, and that exhausted. I need to go home.