indecisive
so i go home in a week- and it just feels strange to think about it- to think about not being in this apt or with these ppl- i dont want to study for my finals and i dont want to finish packing and i dont want to read and i dont want to watch a movie and i dont want to go for a walk- i just dont know - its hard to decide what i want these days- do i want to stay here- do i want to go home- i am soo gonna suffer from culture shock and i know my friends and family are gonna laugh at me for getting excited over the silliest things- i am really excited about next weekend tho- apart from being met at the airport my my parents and ben (which is awesome) my Bro is gonna be there- i havent seen adam in like 5 months and i miss him soo much- he is my big brother and he and i have gotten kinda close since december and i think he is really gonna like what i bought him. Im just so indecisive- this semester really changed me and im afraid ppl back home wont know what to think of me- i dunno maybe im just nervous i mean thats to be expected right- anyways stephano (my italian friend) just called me and i might hang out with them tonite after we go out to dinner for jill and karen's birthday- tomorrow i have a final then i study then i am hopefully going out to dinner with hana- tuesday is my opera final of dooom!!!- then wednesday i have two finals - neither of which i am soo worried about since i only need a c- and i have a b plus in one and an A in the other and then i am done with school- thursday i go out to museums and finish packing and then im going out with the mexicans to central park- friday all of us are going to wake up early and see the sights- go out to il latrini and then see all of florence one last time from Piazza Michaelangelo- (tear)- and then at 430 on sat morning i leave florence- i dont wanna think about it- ugh why cant i be in two places at once!!!