i hope i dont become crazy- i do this to myself you know
so i have two classes down two to go which is great, apart from the fact that i havent really started studying for the finals that i am taking next week and one of them is 30 percent of our grade for the class and i am not doing to well in the class to begin with. school is stressing me out (just like everyone else) and i am alone in my room so i have no one to vent to. I went out to eat with ben last night which was awesome, we were only supposed to hang out with a couple hours, you know watch a movie, order som food and then say goodbye, but we always get caught up in joking around (nothing pervy, seriously we just joke around) and it ended up being around 8 and we still hadnt eaten so we decided to go out to chillis for dinner. as soon as we sat down in chillis ben and i decided that this isnt what we wanted, we wanted burgers, so we went to harvard square on the Bartley's Burgers was closed, so we went to the Border Cafe instead- where i def over ate on the chips and salsa, like always i had a great time with him, and out of the blue he gave me chocolate- just to make me smile he gave me really dark lindt chocolate! and then we hopped on the t and he walked me home. Anyways i got back to my dorm around 11 and started working on paper (which i had to rewrite becaus my professor didnt like it). i worked on it until 330 and just as i was finishing it, i became extremely sick - i think it was because of how much i ate- because of how horrible i felt i couldnt get to sleep until 4 or so and i woke still feeling awful, i got about 4 or so hours of sleep because i had to wake up to finish the paper. Anyway- i have to study for the other two test, do laundry, call two sets of doctors, go declare my major, the registrar office still hasnt called me back to let me know that all of my classes for italy have transferred, my birth control is making me moody, i havent gone shopping for any real gifts, i need to pack, i need to make sure that i have all the documents i need to meet with the italian consulate on wednesday, i have to call work and set up a schedule, and i just found out that i need to take an entrance exam for taking classes in italy, i need to show them both orally and on paper that i can fluently speak italian, i havent taken an italian class for an entire semester, so i have to relearn italian over the break. i need to get my ass in gear and instead i am just thinking about all the stuff i have to do and it justs stresses me out - and i end up taking it out on ppl who didnt do anything- so i end up looking crazy and stupid and my friends think i am moody and scary to be around- and that stresses me out further- this sucks and i do it to myself- grr life sometimes.