Birthday thoughts.
Okay, so technically it's not my birthday yet, but it is only 3 days away. I'm not where I want to be. :: chuckles :: How many people say this day in and day out? I hate how I have to conduct myself at work, I hate that I have to tone down my personality and the way I look for a corperation. I enjoy what I do, though. The whole aspect of bookselling makes me enjoy, at least, the time I spend there. I want to feel like I belong somewhere. I want the time to work on all my projects. If things do not work the way I want them to go, then I already have a plan B. Either here in OH or back home with family. If nothing else, I will open up my own business and I will conduct it the way I believe a business should be conducted. I will not limit the way a person looks, besides basic everyday hygene of course. I will find my beat in this crazy rythem called Life. I will become everything I wanted to be, alone or together. I'm sick and tired of always feeling less then best, feeling compaired by everyone I come across who have more then me; or at least believe they have more then me. I'm tired of losing myself to please the people around me. I will become who I should be, with help and love on the way. I'm not saying I won't get angry or depressed at times, but no matter what I'll always try to stay true to myself, the self I feel I am inside.