after a little time i see
Ladies and gents, I just came back from Baton Rouge where we took a little detour to New Orleans and fucking Mardi Gras!!!!!! Rawked my socks! But unfortunatly i found something out, I'm in love with my best friend here and have been since I met him. And I dont want to date him... sound strange huh, confussinf too well it is... I know all his faults and I know what makes him mad and I just know all this stuff and I have never used it to my advantage. I'm not going to say hes perfect, but he's not a dissappointment to me. He has never dissappointed me. I'm afraid if I let him know how I feel EVERYTHING will change. Hes watched me go through all of my crap at school... he knows almost everyting. Hes almost like a mentor, thats why i dont want to mess it up... dang too bad im fucking self destructive, I could have a quality guy right now...