The last 48 hours
Have been a challenge. There have been some high points: seeing people in Northfield, getting home, seeing Brandon, Ganymede, Cleveland friends. But there have been significantly more low points. Many challenges with my family. They are of the sort that will probably work themselves out, mostly by me lowering my expectations and turning to other people, but that's not really fun. Also, my parents kind of forgot that they still have birthday presents to give me. We did part of my birthday in Utah, but when we got back to Mpls, the drama made them forget the rest. And I wasn't going to ask them, but it's kind of sad.
Now, I seem to be engaged in an unecessarily bitter power struggle with a classmate of mine. It's a long story, but she's got it in her head that everything I did for the group was with the express purpose of attacking her. Yeah, I do think she's kind of lame, but I also CARE ABOUT THE GROUP. Maybe, just maybe, I was working on pro-choice organization because I like working on pro-choice organization. And I'm good at it. Yeah, it is nice to know that the rest of the group is realizing that she's not very good at it, but that's not why I care about it and act on it. This is actually one of my issues. And enough real (i.e. not petty power struggles) problems are on the line that I'm not going to stop acting on them just because my competent actions threaten her sense of self and power. Oh, and guess what's more fun? She's Brandon's roommate: add extra baggage here. If necessary, I'll take my activism elsewhere, but I'd really like to be able to keep doing it within the group. We are now engaged in email war, apparently, so, yes.... I'm kind of electric and fuming.
Now, I seem to be engaged in an unecessarily bitter power struggle with a classmate of mine. It's a long story, but she's got it in her head that everything I did for the group was with the express purpose of attacking her. Yeah, I do think she's kind of lame, but I also CARE ABOUT THE GROUP. Maybe, just maybe, I was working on pro-choice organization because I like working on pro-choice organization. And I'm good at it. Yeah, it is nice to know that the rest of the group is realizing that she's not very good at it, but that's not why I care about it and act on it. This is actually one of my issues. And enough real (i.e. not petty power struggles) problems are on the line that I'm not going to stop acting on them just because my competent actions threaten her sense of self and power. Oh, and guess what's more fun? She's Brandon's roommate: add extra baggage here. If necessary, I'll take my activism elsewhere, but I'd really like to be able to keep doing it within the group. We are now engaged in email war, apparently, so, yes.... I'm kind of electric and fuming.