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pretty sure i had the beginning of a full mental and emotional breakdown at work. never felt anything like it. suddenly broke into tears, couldn't stop crying, couldn't breathe, shaking nearly like a seizure.
doc's assistant says i can't just stop the antidepressants so now i have to wait for the doc to get in tomorrow/today. it's about 3 a.m. here so i'm not sure how to express that.
did some serious comfort food eating even dragged a coworker, my son, and my son's friend along. can't sleep now, or rather not well. can't get up the energy (or maybe the interest) in getting the cpap machine set up tonight. could lead to one of the stopped-breathing episodes to just continue indefinitely. that somehow doesn't encourage me to
i know i'm breaking or broken. just don't care enough to pick up the pieces before they all wash down the drain to oblivia.
i'm a failure at everything, even at being myself.
doc's assistant says i can't just stop the antidepressants so now i have to wait for the doc to get in tomorrow/today. it's about 3 a.m. here so i'm not sure how to express that.
did some serious comfort food eating even dragged a coworker, my son, and my son's friend along. can't sleep now, or rather not well. can't get up the energy (or maybe the interest) in getting the cpap machine set up tonight. could lead to one of the stopped-breathing episodes to just continue indefinitely. that somehow doesn't encourage me to
i know i'm breaking or broken. just don't care enough to pick up the pieces before they all wash down the drain to oblivia.
i'm a failure at everything, even at being myself.