Damaged - Plumb
Damaged
Dreaming comes so easily
Cause it's all that I've known
True love is a fairytale
I'm damaged, so how would I know?
I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm shamed and I need for you to know
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
Healing comes so painfully
And it chills to the bone
Won't let anyone get close to me
I'm damaged, as I'm sure you know
I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm shamed and I need for you to know
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
There's only for my soul
And undo this fear
Forgiveness for a man
Who was stronger
I was just a little girl
But I can't look back
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
Can't go back...
Can't go back...
Can't go back...
Can't go back...
I can't go back...
I can't go back...
I can't go back..
I must go on...
I must go on...
I must go on...
I must go on...
I must go on...
I must go on...
I must go on....
--Plumb
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i'm struggling to understand...
and what makes me think i'll ever understand when it's a question that has gone unanswered for a millenia? how arrogant...how utterly absurd.
and how selfish, honestly, how completely self-absorbed could i possibly be? this is about her pain, the pain that ultimately took her from us. i can't believe she's gone. it was never something that came to mind in reference to her. she's always been there, that other little sister of mine. always sunshine and warmth and love, constant, strong, resilient...and now gone.
what in the world could possibly have been so large to have been able to crush such a powerful life, so much glow and promise and vibrancy?
i can remember when i first met her and her brother, bright and joyful, both so full of love and wonder. they were our first friends, our first root into the community. they saw our differences, but didn't see them as reasons for division, just part of the package. they embraced our cultural quirks and so eagerly welcomed more. she was so curious, so sweet, and it was so very simple to accept her and her brother as our extended siblings.
i remember her growing from a little girl into an adolescent, struggling with the same disappointments and growing pains that life drops into the lap of a young lady learning her way. still, that smile was always there, either beaming bright and proud or hiding just under the edges and waiting for the moment it could light up the room again. her love of life was infectious, and she seemed to bring hope into every setting, no matter how dire.
she became a young woman and mother when i wasn't looking. life didn't throw her challenges, just surprises that she moved around just as she worked around an opponent on the basketball court, that blonde mane flying behind her like a dancer's ribbon, gliding through the air in streams and wiggles, always with grace and beauty.
everything about her screamed love and determination, from the fierce warmth in her hugs to her laughter singing through a group, and most especially the look in her eyes when she looked at her son, that beautiful, vibrant extension of her. everything about her was love and warmth.
how can she be gone? HOW? WHY???
i don't understand. my heart weeps, truly weeps. so much lost, so much taken for granted...
you were and are loved, little sister, always and beyond. i don't understand it, i don't want to accept it, but i pray - GOD PLEASE - i pray that you have found peace and ease from whatever torment tore you away. i love you, and i'm so sorry i wasn't there as i should have been. you deserved better.
Dreaming comes so easily
Cause it's all that I've known
True love is a fairytale
I'm damaged, so how would I know?
I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm shamed and I need for you to know
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
Healing comes so painfully
And it chills to the bone
Won't let anyone get close to me
I'm damaged, as I'm sure you know
I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm shamed and I need for you to know
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
There's only for my soul
And undo this fear
Forgiveness for a man
Who was stronger
I was just a little girl
But I can't look back
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
Can't go back...
Can't go back...
Can't go back...
Can't go back...
I can't go back...
I can't go back...
I can't go back..
I must go on...
I must go on...
I must go on...
I must go on...
I must go on...
I must go on...
I must go on....
--Plumb
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i'm struggling to understand...
and what makes me think i'll ever understand when it's a question that has gone unanswered for a millenia? how arrogant...how utterly absurd.
and how selfish, honestly, how completely self-absorbed could i possibly be? this is about her pain, the pain that ultimately took her from us. i can't believe she's gone. it was never something that came to mind in reference to her. she's always been there, that other little sister of mine. always sunshine and warmth and love, constant, strong, resilient...and now gone.
what in the world could possibly have been so large to have been able to crush such a powerful life, so much glow and promise and vibrancy?
i can remember when i first met her and her brother, bright and joyful, both so full of love and wonder. they were our first friends, our first root into the community. they saw our differences, but didn't see them as reasons for division, just part of the package. they embraced our cultural quirks and so eagerly welcomed more. she was so curious, so sweet, and it was so very simple to accept her and her brother as our extended siblings.
i remember her growing from a little girl into an adolescent, struggling with the same disappointments and growing pains that life drops into the lap of a young lady learning her way. still, that smile was always there, either beaming bright and proud or hiding just under the edges and waiting for the moment it could light up the room again. her love of life was infectious, and she seemed to bring hope into every setting, no matter how dire.
she became a young woman and mother when i wasn't looking. life didn't throw her challenges, just surprises that she moved around just as she worked around an opponent on the basketball court, that blonde mane flying behind her like a dancer's ribbon, gliding through the air in streams and wiggles, always with grace and beauty.
everything about her screamed love and determination, from the fierce warmth in her hugs to her laughter singing through a group, and most especially the look in her eyes when she looked at her son, that beautiful, vibrant extension of her. everything about her was love and warmth.
how can she be gone? HOW? WHY???
i don't understand. my heart weeps, truly weeps. so much lost, so much taken for granted...
you were and are loved, little sister, always and beyond. i don't understand it, i don't want to accept it, but i pray - GOD PLEASE - i pray that you have found peace and ease from whatever torment tore you away. i love you, and i'm so sorry i wasn't there as i should have been. you deserved better.